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found me by accident Welcome to my webpage, my name is Sorean the name under which I pen my writings and my online persona. (Archive News: 2003 / 2004 / 2005 / 2006 / 2007 / 2008) Mar 24th 2009, 10:02 AM This is the first time I've worked on my birthday in the past 5 years. I guess it says something about this job doesn't it? I really do enjoy working here, it's great and I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world. This past weekend was a blast, ended up going go-karting and then laser tag after that, it was so fun. Minus the cold to the point where we thought our fingers might fall off by the time we were done karting. I really couldn't have asked for a better group of people to be around for an awesome event like that. It never ceases to amaze me what wonderful friends I have. A buddy bought an ice cream cake, which was kind of funny because the weekend prior he learned that I was lactose intollerant, but I still had a small slice anyway, out of polietness and I was amazed at how I was able to handle it. A little discomfort, but I was able to handle it okay, just won't be a regular thing is all :) Though the past 2 days I've had to sleep a lot and I don't know why. Sunday I slept for 12 hours, and then on Monday I slept for another 12 if not more. My body just didn't have any energy, I took a shower on Monday and came out more tired than when I went in, weirdest feeling in the world. I feel much better today, but I still have a bit of a headache from yesterday too. I agreed to pick up another course that is due at the beginning of May so that means I'll probably be going into hermit mode working again for all of April to get it done. Here's hoping that I'm able to pull it off. - Sorean Mar 20th 2009 9:06 AM Yikes it's been a while since I've updated this, curse that busy life! For the record I did sign up by the end of the first week of March and I have been a part of it for what will be 2 weeks tomorrow, off to a slow start, but started communicating with some of the people there. So playoffs for one of my volleyball teams has started and soon I'll be back down to 2 teams, but I picked up a new assignment/contract from my university job so I'm pretty sure that will chew up the rest of this month and most of April. Who can complain about more money right? It's not like I have anything else going on presently so it's a matter of either working more, or video games. Well there's always exercise which I plan on throwing in as well, but that comes after my tax return and a few new pairs of shoes. The new shoes are court shoes and running shoes. I'm going to take up running this summer to see if I can get any more improvement on the weight issue. I'm down to 219 so the progress has slowed significantly and I gotta make a harder push. Now it's going to be hard with this upcoming weekend. I have laser tag planned with some friends for my upcoming birthday so that should be good, but after that the plans are semi in the air, I know I want to go for dinner, but where and with who will depend on who sticks around after laser tag. A lot of people already had evening plans sadly :( For some inexplicable reason I feel like I'm falling into a funk too, I can't figure out why yet, but I'm sure it will come to me, but what a bad time to have it to happen though. It's my birthday coming up, bunch of friends and I are gonna go out and have some fun this weekend, but I can't shake this slowly growing sense of dread, negative energy, whatever you want to call it I can't really describe it creeping up on me. Wish I knew what it was so I could deal with it and move on, a bit of drinking tonight and tomorrow could solve that too :D But alcohol has so many calories.....did you know a 26 of malibu rum has almost 1800 calories, that's your daily intake for an averaged size person... well daily intake is about 2000 calories. Just something to think about you know. I'm sure the last time I downed that in one night it didn't help my weight loss, but on the overall progress is there, not as fast as it can be, but it is never good to lose a lot fast. I much prefer this gradual thing because my diet is changing to the point where I'm eating healthier for the most part, but still allowing myself to indulge occasionally so I'm not hating the diet. It's all about balance :D Aside from the above I'm happily trotting through life, yes I said trotting. Throw back song: Forty Foot Echo - Save Me - Sorean Mar 1st 2009, 4:58 PM Another 2 weeks have passed in the blink of an eye and what does one have to show for it? A pound of weight gain, a big guilt of the bad food that I've eaten in the past 2 weeks (which totally doesn't make sense, for what I've eaten, I should be a lot heavier). I really need to find a way past this plateau that I've hit with the weight thing. It's kinda funny how a few of my friends and I were talking and noticed the same thing, we all entered university a certain weight and we ended up putting on the same amount of weight each. I entered school at 185-190 and at present weigh 225, we all put on about 30-35 pounds in the past 7 years and frankly that's not too bad, but a lot of us have been at the same weight since we've left school, Freshman fifteen our ass, it's more like freshman forty :P I don't even know why I'm so concerned about the weight, I guess it's more about a self perception and I don't think I'll be happy until I get to about 200 or so. I'm close, but need something to push me over. Oh well, I need to be less obsessive about it and just be more proactive. I think I'll have to break down and start running this summer, it's sad, but I just don't find it entertaining. So as of today I think I'm up to 3 volleyball teams... where am I going to find more time? :D I like to have a busy life and sadly I don't think I would like to have it any other way. I came home Friday night and was bored so I started doing my contract job... this was after seeing a theater show. Boeing Boeing is a very funny act and highly entertaining, must keep things like that in mind for dates in the future. I'm just kinda smart like that sometimes :P Although depending on who you ask, I suck at being a good boyfriend which leads to the next mini-rant. This past week I've been told twice that I just straight up need a girlfriend, and once I was told I was desperate too.... I don't even know how that even works or why they all seem to think I need to be with a girl to be complete. In all honesty I would rather die alone than be in a relationship where I'm not happy. There's too many people out there that are in unhealthy, unhappy, and unfulfilling relationships that I refuse to be in one of those. Now all my friends that are in relationships/marriages are great, sure they have their little conflicts and compromises, but what relationship doesn't? Personally I still believe in love at first sight, however I think my eyes are a little clouded. I just don't get why people have this opinion of me. I have had great relationships in the past, but they just didn't work out. Why my friends seem to think that I should be in a relationship to be complete is beyond me. At the present I'm am very content with my life and all the things that I do, but I will admit that if I had a woman in it, it would be perfect, just need to find her, or for her to find me. I believe in that mantra that I will eventually find that person, "If it is meant to be then it is meant to be". Cliché as it is, it is still true. So Feburary is over and I still haven't gotten around to signing up for e-harmony because of all the stuff going on, but if I don't start, I can't really get into it. By the end of this week, I will have it done and signed up. There, it's written now it's accountable, must get it done :D - Sorean Feb 19th 2009, 8:00 AM I am living in the light now, well sort of. The course is done and I just have final exams left to do. So the weekend was full of events. The past Friday was a Friday the 13th and it was a good time had by all. It was the first time I've seen any of the Friday the 13th series. It was a good and pretty awesome for back then. Valentines was uneventful, spent it with some friends and ended up just watching a couple of movies and getting to bed at 4, just like the night before. Sunday was hanging out with a friend who made a pretty funny comment. She was telling me that I need to be booked 2 weeks in advanced to see me. It sounds kind of elitest or arrogant but it kind of is true, as of Tuesday this weekend is already planned, and then next weekend it's Andrea's birthday so that's already taken as well, suprisingly both days. As far as WoW goes, my guild and I have done everything, I'm glad to see there is something else coming to challenge us. So far it's been kind of disappointing, we're gotten almost everything, well at least I have ;) But I get to help those whose company I enjoy and they play well. We're looking for challenge and maybe this will keep us playing. Sadly, if it doesn't become a challenge I might just quit playing and do something else instead. The weight loss has been going pretty decently, down to 223, time to keep pushing. I'm kind of surprised how busy I am, but such is life I suppose :) - Sorean Feb 6th 2009, 10:36 AM My life has been nothing but a time filled with work. This course is almost done though, I have spent almost no downtime at all to myself in the past month and it's starting to get to me, even though I like having things constantly going a hermit or drunk filled weekend is coming up. This part time job has become another full time job. I submitted my hours last week and I fit in 3 weeks of work (120+ hours) into two weeks. Yeah, I'm that dedicated to getting things done. Oh well, it's part of the gig and I can manage. Do it now while you're still young and save up the money right? Since I posted this on Facebook, it might as well go here too for the people that check this but aren't facebook friends (which I think are few), but this site does have a little more of my personal ramblings than anything else. On facebook I have former teachers and people that I may not want reading thoughts that I have. Although if they found out about this it isn't very hard. There is a quick link to it if they just search for Sorean.
I can see the light at the end of the tunnel though, it's a little dim, but I'm getting there. Current track: Mr. Sam feat. Claud9 - Cygnes - Sorean Jan 22nd 2009, 1:02 PM So the last two weeks have been filled of me working, lots. Not just my regular job, but my part-time contract work. It's taken up all my free time and I feel like a hermit. I was out a few times this past weekend, but it still felt rushed. Not something that I enjoyed too much to be honest. Aside from that, we suffered our first defeats this week, and I played poorly. I was frustrated with myself by the end of the night to a point where I was just making dumb mistakes. Aside from that there really isn't any news to report as being new. New self control has caused me to drop below the 225 mark for the first time this year weight wise. Was almost at 240 at the beginning of the year. Man when I put it like that I like seeing the numbers. Part of the push for this is due to the fact that I sometimes feel sluggish on my feet on my Monday night games. I'm a 1/2 second slower, I'm not jumping that extra 1/2 inch to make the difference for a block. Hopefully if I can drop to 200 I can make those movements easier. Who would have known that simply changing what you eat can help this much? Don't get me wrong, I still have fast food once a week, but that's about the only time I've have it, I don't do it too often, and even when I do have it, I feel kind of gross afterwards. I think I'm going to be cutting some more things out and trying to find more exercise type things that I can find time for. I still really want a Wii Fit, but have still yet to find it. I can't do DDR any more because my ankle starts hurting after a few songs. Damn that injury from last year. Regular work wise I'm on the home stretch of finishing the product I started last June/July. Man, when I think about that it really makes me wonder how long this thing took. I mean I've been working on it every day, but more and more things get added, too bad you can't see what I'm talking about. Although a chunk was spent on redesigning the main website for my company (www.itracksolutions.com) if you want to check it out. That's all my doing :) I know, it looks like a programmer developed it, but the boss loves it. Holy crap, just did the archive for 2008 and realize that I have kept this running for over 5 years now. Damn..... wonder how much longer I will keep this going, probably so long as I see fit, which means forever. There are some things that you know you can / will never give up. Then again I always advocate, never say never because you don't know what the future holds. More random thoughts, the other day I was thinking that my friends have been married for almost 2 years now and that he calls her his wife and she calls him her husband. The thought of being refered to by that word and to call someone my wife just seems really for lack of a better term weird to me. I just can't really grasp that concept. I'm sure if I met someone that knocked me off my feet that it'd be different, but as it stands the romantic idealist of my childhood has died long ago and has been replaced by a much more jaded individual. I guess I'm coming to terms with a loss of self and dealing with the realism in this world. I've tried hard in past relationships and in each successive one, I tried less and less. However, I remember what it was like to have that romantic ideal, to have that hope; actions speak louder than words so I will try to reassert myself to that status and not give up hope that something like that is real. Christ, this is starting to sound like an episode of "The Wonder Years" :P That Winnie was hot :D Current favourite track: Dash Berlin Feat. Jaren - Man on the run - Sorean Jan 13th 2009, 9:26 AM So a second request for an RSS feed for this site has come in and I guess it's about time I revamped it a bit to reflect the evolution that has been my life as well as integrate new technology that I have learned along the way. Again, last night was a series of tough games and I realized something, a girl that can play volleyball well is very attractive to me. Who woulda guessed? :P Had a sub for one of our girls last night and man this girl could hit and had great court presence and just knew the game. It's kinda awesome that way. Back to the game, it was a tough set of wins, beat the first team 2-0 and the second team 2-1, last game was down to a 15-13 win. I gotta say I love the level that our team is playing at, we have to play strong and competative and frankly, there were times I was a little lazy and it cost us a few points. I also realized that if I'm the same size as the guy I got a good chance to block/get a piece of the block, but if they're bigger than me, I have issues. Played against this guy that was at least 4 inches taller and well he could crank/block it. Solution? Hit away from him, go around them. The team has a really good synergy and it's amazing, hands down probably the best team I've played with in Calgary so far. Food balance is still being preserved during the week, although when the weekend's hit they tend to go bye bye due to going out with friend's all the time. I just need to be a little more disciplined about it. Also, I don't know how I have forgotten to mention this, but if you have not seen Dr. Horrible, find it and get to it. It's awesome, an internet musical that was produced last year and was just awesome. Stars Neil Patrick Harris, Nathan Fillion, and Felicia Day, written by Joss Whedon and freaking awesome. I'll admit, musicals are a guilty pleasure of mine that I whole heartedly enjoy :P I don't know why, but something about musicals are fun and lighthearted, even dark ones like Sweeny Todd. Have a safe week. - Sorean Jan 6th 2009 9:39 AM A very belated Happy New Years. So far the year has been off to a good start. The eve was spent with the new group of friends plus Lindz and wasn't a bad time at all, kinda felt bad for my friend's little sister because her birthday was on the 31st and all her friends apparently ditched out. But still was an enjoyable time, and for the record, Dick Clark's rocking new years eve is stupid, they cut to the end credits right before the countdown and then it's gone. That's 2 years now where we've been screwed over by it. Next year, CBC. Had a volleyball tournament this past weekend, came 1 point out of playoffs, but it's my rec team, not to sound arrogant, but I'm the best player on the team and it's more of a, it's getting me out for exercise during the week. Last night however was the first night of the competative team I play on. It is a change because we lost one of our middle players, but that's okay, I get to go back to where I used to play and man we had some great games. It's going to be a tough season, but it's a good thing. Just means that I have to play to the best of my ability and get in better shape, which is good because it goes in line with what I am going to be/having been doing so far. Every year I say I'm going to work out more, or do this or that more, but this year I've choosen a goal that I can stick to. It's a change in eatting habits/choices. Conscience making healthier choices, making sure I get my 8-10 veggies, 8 grains, 2 milk, and 3 meats a day, can you tell I researched? And it may sound like a lot, but in reality, a serving is only equal to about 125ml or grams of food. An average 8 inch banana (/snicker) as a morning snack counts as 2 servings so it's not that hard to do. One thing that I am getting surprised by is the amount of dishes I go through while making proper meals, it's kind of annoying :P Here's to a good start and high hopes for this year! - Sorean |
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