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It's been a couple days and I figured I should update. After all, I still have one thing to rant about, parenting, but this is not the time for it. I just picked up NHL2k5 for the gamecube, me and Kev are going to have tons of fun with that one. I finished reading the instruction manual and it allows for running a Dynasty which controls all the money and other such things as part of the company. It's gonna be great, the only bad thing is that I can't find a fantasy draft mode in the book, hopefully there is one.

At any rate, everyone should be using Firefox, now for some reason, this site does not show up properly when it is being viewed with Firefox so I really have to figure out what the problem is because all everything is is just html, nothing fancy, but it's not processing the style sheet files properly as far as I can tell. Gotta debug.... at least I'm kinda back into programming now I guess.

I read a couple of my other friend's sites, and contrary to them, I cannot brag about the Christmas gifts that I got because quiet frankly I got none, well save a CD that Frank sent me. Yes, materialistic things are nice, but who really needs them? I have my friends and thankfully now, my health (no more Bell's Palsy shit). I can't really ask for more because as long as I'm able to work, I'll be fine and I do not see a reason to complain. Unlike some people.

After a rough tally according to my online banking, I spent over 600 bucks in Edmonton, not bad for a trip considering gas/hotel = 180. Food, presents and shopping add up to more, 600 bucks over 4 days = 150 bucks a day = 10 hours of work or so. So technically working for a week for 4 days of fun, well worth it. Presents for 2 people cost 100 bucks. Food was the hardest hitter by process of elimination, but whatever, it was very enjoyable out there. Anyway, back to work now, take care everyone.

Dinner with Andrea was great, it was with Brandon, her roommate Mitch, and Mitch's mom and sister. It was a well cooked meal, there's my cheat day for this week. Yes, I'm back on the diet again, so it's another couple of weeks of self control.

Right now I'm typing this because they are outside sitting around playing Rummy and I'm just waiting for them to finish so we can play some poker. Seeing a collection of family and friends like that makes me wish that Christmas was a special time for me. As Maggie had said to me once, "We're going to have to change your view on Christmas when we have kids." How right she is, about my view on Christmas I mean. But I don't get it, why does it have to be one day that you use to gather around and celebrate with your family and friends? I cherish my friends with each breath and I cherish my mom, brother, and sister as well. I try to let them know as much as possible and not just on certain days, though I might not say it, I hope that those whose lives I touch and those that touch me know that I care about everyone..... That reminds me, I came to an epiphany the other day. But first to finish this point, Christmas is important, yes, but it is not the only day you should care about those around you, find small reasons to be with those you care about and that should be enough. Now, there other pointless days like Family Day, Valentines, and birthdays, okay, I was wrong, they aren't pointless, but they are other "markers" on the calendar. My point is that you don't need those markers at all, whatsoever. Now to my epiphany.

I always say that I try to help those around me, to be there for everyone, to do the best that I can to serve those around me. The sad fact of the matter, that I finally came to realize Friday Morning was that I can't help everyone, I'm still human, not a god, not a divine being or any supernatural manifestation of any power that is meant to do good. The only thing that I can hope to do is help those around me the best I can. Last weekend in Edmonton some of my actions were called into question by a friend, well some actions but not all. At any rate, she said I lost my morals. I found that comment to almost attack me as a person, but she did have a valid point in saying them. I knew what I was doing was deemed wrong, but my mind and my heart were telling me different things. The mind and the heart.....

So many times I have stated "Mind over matter, as long as you believe in something, you can overcome anything as long as you believe in it." The mind and the heart are separate entities entirely, ones that eventually govern your entire being as a person. This brings me back to my senior year in high school. There was this girl that I liked, in my mind I knew that we were just friends, but my heart wanted more. At any rate, I believed that I loved this girl, in fact I don't know if I had loved her at all. I did care a lot about her, I knew about her past and the pain that she was going through, all I wanted to do was to show her that there are better things out there. All I wanted to do was show her that there is good in this world and to take her from the pain she knew. I never got that chance then, but I have been able to with others, at least I was able to with Maggie. The only difference is that back then, I knew that the mind and the heart were separate things, one has logic, the other has emotion, morals, love. What you know what you have to do and what you feel you have to do are two different things. Logic will get you far, but not with people. Compassion, friendship, and most importantly, love; these are things that logic cannot comprehend, not even if they were analyzed for a million years. What causes us to understand what people are going through as well as what they might be experiencing? What causes us to be friends with people? What is love? Can logic explain why people have these feelings? Can you show me love? Can you show me friendship? These things are all ideals, you cannot show me these things in it's pure, true form, all you can do is show me examples of them and they do not count. The only place that these thing exist is in your heart. "Above all, to thy own self be true" That includes listening to both logic and emotions, these words have yet to fail me and I do not expect them to anytime soon or ever.

So far this rant covers 2 of the 3 things I mentioned, and I will not go into the third thing yet because that is a rant in itself. Now they are trying to pull me away to play poker, so everyone take care, time to be social again :D Merry Christmas one and all!!

Merry Christmas one and all, now there was a lot of stuff that I was going to post about, but nothing major at the moment, headed over to Andrea's for Christmas dinner tonight so I won't be around much today or have the time to rant about all the things on my mind lately, but just so I kinda don't forget and so that you have an idea, future rants include morals, parenting, and points about the Christmas holiday itself. Until then, Wishing you the best <Insert appropriately themed greeting here>!

The past weekend was great!! The trip to Edmonton was well worth the money, I don't know the finally tally yet but once all my visa shows up on my account and then I'll tell you how much it was. I know it will be at least a couple hundred, but it was well worth it. I can honestly say that I almost know West Edmonton Mall inside out. I have no idea how many times I walked up and down that mall in the past weekend, but it was a lot. Much fun was had though it seemed like Brandrea was their little group and me and Lindz were our own group. Mitch and Joey were there too, but we were kinda split into those two groups. Lindz, Joey, and I found a new arcade game to play, Ghost Squad. That game is awesome, I dropped at least 20 bucks into it over the weekend, but we got better at it. I have the 5th highest score when we left and I was only off by 50,000 points for first so I'm pretty sure if we played through it a couple more times I woulda had first.

Finally met my friends Kate and Reena, both awesome girls. Kate spent all of Sunday and part of Monday with us before we had to leave, all I can say about this girl is that she is amazing. Oh yeah, I got one of those water massages that they have in the mall, holy crap, if you have not gone for one of these I highly suggest that you go. It was so relaxing, it just put you completely at rest and your muscles are so loose it doesn't even feel like you're walking, it feels like you're gliding more than anything.

The drive up there was alright, wasn't that bad, didn't seem like 3 hours at all. The trip back on the other hand was just ugly and I'm going back into a graves shift so hence why I'm up at this time, I'll be at work this time tomorrow and getting ready to leave...... At any rate, Mitch drove partially home and I took a nap, it helped the grave transition I think, except I went to take a nap around 1 and now I woke up to type this :S Either way, I'm going back to bed in a couple hours. The drive back was into blowing snow.... needless to say that it was ugly fast. Oh yeah, I've seen a 20 degree drop in temperature in one day, crazy Edmonton weather. It was -16 there, -24 with the wind when we were leaving and by the time we got to Calgary it was -1. Also, the previous day in Edmonton was warm, snow melting temperature.

If you are going to be staying in Edmonton Do Not stay at the Days Inn downtown, the rooms are cold as hell, it's like heat does not exist. Additionally, the showers are super sensitive, a quick little nudge can turn the water from lukewarm to scalding hot, it was great fun :P

A couple of good things came from the trip, several in-depth discussions arose from the trip, meet my friends up there which I had never met before, got a nice shirt, which I need to buy cufflinks for now. A new sweater, new belt, never did get the pants I was planning on, couldn't find any that were relatively priced and looked good. Found out my car can make it all the way to Edmonton and back so a trip to Saskatoon in the near future (next couple of months). Now I'm off to play WoW for a little more before bed, later all.

On the eve of my trip to Edmonton I shall make one last update. Sadly the past week has been taken up by WoW..... the game has stolen my brain and my life....... I've spent 180 bucks at Wal-Mart in the past 2 days.... that doesn't seem right does it? Well a rice cooker, new shoes, razor blades, it adds up. Well a new hair cut which every seems to like is good thing right now, especially the way the stylist left it. It seems like everyone really likes it, people have been given me compliments left right and centre. Somewhat of an ego booster, but I'll never let it get to my head, I really don't think I look good or anything to that effect, but if many people say it right?

I downloaded a movie a while ago, Fist of Fury 1991, a Chinese movie. Now as I'm watching it I realize I watched this movie as a kid, but it's still good to watch because it reminds me of being a kid and that I can still understand the Cantonese language. It's really weird because I can still understand them and it's not English as silly as that sounds. Another thing that I realize is that movie styles as well as what is acceptable back then is not acceptable now as well as the topics that Asian movies make light about or joke about are not touched in the western movies. There is such a difference between the east and the west. I'm just glad that I'm open enough to understand and accept both sides of the world. Anyway, the movie is over now and I should get to bed as I'm getting up early tomorrow to drive. Take care one and all, I'll update when I get back.

Okay working at 6AM on Sundays should be illegal, oh well, such is the life of a shift worker. So how have my past couple of days been? Oddly eventful I must say. Since my last post I've logged a total of almost 20 hours into my character in WoW.... shush to you all as I know that is a lot of time between then and now, but I did manage to pull myself away from a computer long enough to enjoy my weekend with my friends.

Friday was spent at my work Christmas Party to which Andrea accompanied me. It was a pretty good meal and the dance after woulda been okay if everyone didn't already leave after the casino. It was a fun play money casino with 40,000 made it into 380,000 playing blackjack. Granted the dealer was playing nice and some of the hands she deliberately threw, but she did tell me that she deals for real during the Stampede and I was making good move as an anchor. Kinda made me feel good about my gambling habits and abilities. Thank god I'll never become like my father is.

Anyway yesterday I went to see Blade Trinity with Lindz. Action was great, everything else was just so so. I must admit though, Jessica Beil is hot, and the movie makes her hotter. Ever since she was on 7th Heaven I thought she was hot, but she's got nothing on Julia Stiles. Anyway it was a good movie overall, a lot of cool new toys for Blade, a lot of funny lines by Ryan Reynolds, and of course, Jessica Beil.

Before the movie started there was actually a couple of ads for suspense/horror movies and I know that I don't like horror movies about the stuff that is probable, that shit scares the fuck outta me. At any rate I'm not even sure I really understand my fears. Stuff like The Ring and From Beyond still sometimes still sometimes haunt my memory, but movies like Embrace of the Vampire, Dracula, Red Dragon, they don't scare me, but then again Red Dragon doesn't really count. Even peaceful aliens don't scare me, at any rate I'm not even sure where my fears come from. Hell, chucky scares me. Damn possession. Speaking of possessions and Blade, I realized that a couple of my friends have rather dark names that all somehow relate to the devil....Lindz usually goes by Mephesto, Jackson goes by Azazel, Adam Felske goes by Draconis occasionally. All variants of the devil's name........... I have funny friends :P

Lastly, road trip to Edmonton soon, we'll be leaving Friday and coming back Monday, I wish more of you could join me up there, sadly some of you can't :( Well I'm off now, take care everyone.

So today was my 1 year anniversary with Unnamed Company, it's been a year since I was contractually accepted into the company and I've moved up :D I'm also eating my words now. Not in regards to my work, but in regards to a game.... I bought World of Warcraft today.......... pretty much just to play with the guys at work that do too. I think it's worth it. The game play is smooth, the graphics are pretty good, and the team aspect is going to be awesome :). At any rate, to the gamer friends of mine that read this, my character name is going to be Sorean, Night Elf Hunter. Now off I go to play.

Those who have not heard of Thornly most definitely should check them out. They are partial made up of former members of Big Wreck if that rings a bell. I had not heard of them before, but Lindz took me to their concert last night, they fucking rocked!! The opening band, Doctor, needs some work, but they have potential and even a chick guitarist. They're just missing a certain je ne sais quoi. Either way it was an awesome night. Thornly's drummer was insane, so scary, I've never seen anyone that good before. I thought P.O.D.'s drummer was good when we saw then at Mac Hall, but this guy blows him away. He went on a 5 or 6 minute solo where he just let it go, he was crazy, played everything from his drums to the mic and even the rafters. If anyone has seen Drumline this drummer puts that kid to shame with a snare drum. Over all, it was a good night, the band made up for the 8:30 to 11:45 gap that they left when we thought they would start earlier. I mean I can understand from a bar's perspective to why the large delay, but I learned my lesson for the next time a concert is held at a bar.

In other news, Edmonton trip is coming soon, it might be modified a little bit to be from the 17th to the 20th because it turns out Lindz got time off work and I'm not due back to work until the 22nd. It'll be a fun time up in Edmonton with shopping and dancing abound. So far, confirmed are Lindz, Andrea, and Joey. We are meeting 2 of my friends up there, Kate and Reena. It should be a fun time for all. Cost wise it should be too bad I think, I just booked the hotel rooms and it's going to be about 120 bucks each for 3 days so 40 bucks a night isn't bad when you think about it that way. Regardless of the cost, I'm psyched about going, I get to chill with my friends in a new city.

Everyone has heard of Ken Jennings right? Well for the benefit of those that do not he is the longest streak winner on Jeopardy! I believe he went 75 games and won over 2.5 million dollars. Anyway, here is a clip that shows that even with this man's intelligence, he has a sense of humor as well. By the way, I woulda given it to him.

So ends my whirlwind weekend and I'm back at work tonight, with actual people, not that the graves guys aren't good to work with, but I'm back in the grind now. Nothing really happened on the 2nd, but the 3rd is where my weekend began well after I woke up anyway. So out I go to Meaghan's Christmas party with her, Lindz, and Meaghan's friend Colleen. The dinner was great, it was at the same hotel that our grad was at and it was pretty fun. Meg's co-workers know I can dance at least now, it was pretty fun. Some one called me "Black Nova" only cuz I was wearing white pants and a black shirt, I only know this because they said "Hey Black Nova, turn around" twice. So I turned around and I had my picture taken. There was a girl there that was kinda cute and she could dance, kinda reminded me of Agnes' dance style, but she's a lot more outgoing she noticed me dancing and was kinda impressed I guess, not many people just say "Look at you go". Then some guy asked me to put him on my shoulders when YMCA was playing, that was after there was already 2 other guys doing that, it was fun, but damn did it hurt my back. I don't even know why it hurt, pain just kinda showed up.

After the dance we went back to Meg's place where we just chillaxed until about 2:30/3ish. We all went to bed, I crashed there cuz Lindz eventually needed a ride home otherwise I probably would have driven home. Either way, I was up at 6:30 and ready to go, for some reason Lindz was up too, but apparently Meg had just gone to bed, so we decided on crashing for 2 hours and then getting up around 8 to take off. Next thing I know, Meg is waking me up at noon.... well there goes my plan for the Saturday. So I drive Lindz home and we remembered that it is the Guildwars Weekend Beta Event, so for the next 10 or 11 hours we sit at his place playing Guildwars, it has been a long time coming since I've done that with any one game. My Ranger/Monk is completely decked out in anti-fire equipment, which seems to be everyone's choice of elements at the moment. Anyway here are a couple of pictures that I took: Me & My Bird, Fire, Army. Graphically, the game is amazing and the play is going to have me playing for months to come. Sadly, I'm stuck at work this weekend while the last day of the event runs out :(

After the gaming session Lindz and I went to our friend Jer's party for a bit, it was alright, chilled with some people we hadn't seen in a while and I was home by about 2:30. So almost 36 hours after the fact I was home again.... went to bed, work up and here I am at work.

In environmental news, to pull a cliché "It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas". Roads are shit, needless to say and had there been cars parked in spots where my car skidded I'd been in 2 accidents already. Well back to work.

I've realized I've become somewhat apathetic towards everything. Maybe it's just because of the past 2 weeks, but every day it's the same thing, sleep, wake up, workout, play games, work, games, sleep, I really have to find something else to do. Maybe it's because I don't have anything else to do that gets me bored. Yay for video games, not sure what I'd do without them. Probably read like I used to or watch more movies. I watched Embrace of the Vampire before work tonight, it's nothing more than an soft-core porno movie as far as I'm concerned. I love vampires, anyone that knows my interests should know that. It was kinda funny actually, I scared Maggie and her sister with my talk about vampirism and blood drinking.... I just thought that it would be cool to live forever as a vampire. But the thing I love most about vampire movies is the fact that they seem to always be a love story. Embrace was such a movie, but it was a very sad one. Talks about a man that was turned into a vampire the day he had found his true love, for years he searched for her again, but lost her. Now he has found her soul and wishes to be with her again, sadly it's not to be because she loves another. To spend eternity with a loved one is what everyone wants I guess. Some not so much because they get divorced. But to live forever.... now there is a dream, to be able to impart knowledge and guidance to those that did not live then would truly be a great feat. But sadly, it's not meant to be, vampires don't exist. There have been times where I just wished that a vampire would make me one of their kind. To live in the dark world, to caress the darkness, to truly be a creature of the night. But that was when I was young, but still, sometimes the thought intrigues me. To die and be born again....it's what we think really happens. That is the ones that have faith in the afterlife, when we die, we go into another realm to live again, be it heaven or hell, Hmm this isn't the rant that I thought it was going to be. One of these days I'm going to have to pick each one of these topics and just go off about them. Vampirism, faith, religion, alter-egos, they are all something I have very strong opinions about. Either way, I'm getting delusional and I'm going to stop for now cuz this rant really has been about nothing :P

So last night my friends and I went to see National Treasure staring Nicolas Cage, not a bad film actually, a pretty cool story, but I still think The Da Vinci Code is a lot cooler, mainly because it deals with fundamental beliefs rather than monetary ones. The past 2 days have been relatively uneventful, that dream was kinda cool though even though you all say I'm messed up, but whatever, you guys had fun reading about it :) So today I'm supposed to go to the doc, and I'm supposed to do laundry, but they can both wait... actually I am going to go to the doc, it's probably a good idea. It's been a week since I've seen the doc about this Bell's Palsy thing I guess a check up would be a good idea. I'll be back later to edit this to tell you how it goes.

**Edit2** When we were at the movie Ryan has a problem with Hugh Grant and this conversation ensued:

Okay, waking up for the weirdest series of dreams. Two days running now I just kinda forgot to post it yesterday. Yesterday's dream. Half-life2 related. Everyone who has played knows that when you die you click your mouse and you respawn to the last auto save point. Any rate, it was more to the fact that my friends and I were surrounded by the "infected" scientists and couldn't get away, guns wouldn't fire, ran outta ammo, any possible situation. Every time that I "died" I woke up. This went on for a good hour, it was like an infinite loop and I'd tried new ways to get out of it. Each section lasted about 10 minutes so about about 6 tries I said fuck it and just got up instead. But it's the part where I would wake up, go back to sleep and it would be another attempt at the same problem. Ah well, chalk that up to the medicine.

Today's dream, now this was a fucking mind trip, this one could be made into a full length movie and damn my brain should be a director. The cast consisted of myself, Lindz, Meg, Angelina Jolie (no clue why), and Will Ferrell. This is what I can start remembering anyway. Starts out with Lindz and his wife, Meg (now don't get freaked out you two, it's just a dream) living in a house. It's an old run down house, but then Lindz had to take off on a business trip and asked me to take care of the house and Meg (why she can't take care of herself I don't know). At any rate I agree and my wife (no idea who she was) and I move in for the interim while Lindz is gone, with Meg. Now this is a fancy house with maids and butlers so everything gets done quickly and neatly. At any rate, a day or two goes by and Angelina Jolie shows up and Meg disappears.... During this entire thing I was going with the flow, wasn't really trying to decided what was going on. But then something weird happened, we were all sitting around the table for breakfast, Myself, my wife, and Ms. Jolie. Then I notice that Ms. Jolie has two huge lumps in her neck, almost like she had swallowed whole eggs. Then everything started going crazy. Angelina started yelling and her neck started getting longer, I saw the shells break open inside her skin and the snakes struggling to get out of her skin. They tried about 3 times and then Angelina's whole head turned into a snakes head for just a moment, but just long enough to turn to my wife, rip her head off and swallow it whole. Almost as if she were trying to feed the baby snakes. After that she changes back and her neck kept getting longer and then she vomited the snakes out . At this point in time I'm sitting there in my chair having convulsions. The snakes were asps, one of the most deadly snakes out there. After the snakes come out and go off, Angelina turns back in to Meg and she's just lying there, naked, in this green puddle of goo. Okay, at this point of the dream I'm getting confused and start questioning it. I go and run to get a towel and come back and Meg is just standing there freaked out because she didn't know what happened. Lying at her feet is a layer of skin, somewhat like what a snake sheds, but it was human and I think it was supposed to represent the inside of the human body as it looked like it had the outer shape of a human body, but it was transparent and showed the insides of the human system, more specifically the stomach. So Meg now has a towel around here and we try to figure out what has happened, but a time lapse occurs. I see Will Ferrell walking around the house breaking shit, most mirror and harassing the staff to clean it up. Then it cuts back to me and Angelina (no idea where Meg went) and we were talking cuddled up like a couple would be. She was sorry that she killed my wife and we're not really sure what had happened. She had said something about swallowing the eggs was a heat of the moment thing in reference to motherhood, but I can't remember exactly what she said. So we both said our good nights and then the next morning I find a solid canoe like thing sitting in the kitchen with Angelina lying there with two Asps slithering around her, fresh bite marks on her chest (Cleopatra reference most likely). And of course I'm freaking out because one, she's probably dying, and two, I'm scared to death of these snakes. At this point, I've come to full consciousness that I'm in a dream and I'm going to try to save her life. Without even thinking I grab the two snakes with my bare hands and throw them throw to the wall. And then I work on trying to save Ms. Jolie. How do you normally treat a person who has been bitten by a snake? You suck the poison out, now I wasn't even thinking about it and just did it, only after I woke up did I realize that I was sucking poison out of her chest, all be it in a dream it still must have been kind of cool. With the poison sucked out she suddenly became conscious and wrapped her arms around me and thanked me. At this point Lindz, or who I assume was Lindz opens the door and walks in, my eyes flash to the floor to where the snakes were. They were quickly making for the exit, one got out, but Lindz closed the door on the other, splitting it in half. The weird is that this person was supposed to be Lindz, but looked nothing like him. I don't even know how to describe him because after seeing the snake get split in half, I woke up. But that must have been a pretty weird end sequence.

Wow, that took almost an hour to write, oh well, I was chatting to people in the process too, but yeah, I'm pretty damn sure that I have the weirdest dreams out of all my friends. Take care everyone.

Well it's almost been a week since this Bell's Palsy thing kicked in and I'm starting to get used to it, but it's true that it is getting annoying. It's like I'm an Asian Jean Chrétien, I can talk but it's not normal. Eating has actually become a hassle, I never thought I would say that, I'm only eating because I know I should. It's kinda hard to eat because the right side of my mouth doesn't work and I can't taste very much of what I eat. You'd think that it wouldn't be a big deal, but boy are you wrong. At any rate, I sincerely hope that none of you will ever be affected by this.

Oh well, I can't wait until my trip to Edmonton, anyone that wants to come just e-mail me or leave a message on the forum. It'll be a good weekend away from everything before the craziness of Christmas strikes each and every one of us. Anyway, I hope all is going well for everyone, there are 3 weeks until the trip, plan ahead now :D Take care.

Okay, I lied, this Bell's Palsy thing is getting really annoying. My right eye is constantly sore and the inability to control my own damn face makes me feel so damn helpless. I'm not asking for pity, I'm just venting. The thing that scares me is that I'm 21 and according to the link, only 40,000 people get it a year in the states, comparatively, that's barely .01% of the population that get hit with this. Also, 20% of the people affected take longer than 3 months to recover, some never recover. Needless to say I'm a little worried after doing a little research. But I'm sure I'll be fine. At any rate, life is going okay otherwise. Working graves this week, it's not that bad, Lindz let me borrow his laptop so it's not that bad. Gaming and movies are on the agenda for the night shifts as is the norm. I'm off now to get an eye patch, later everyone, take care.

**Edit**
Using only one eye really messes up your depth perception as well as everything else. This is gonna take some getting used to. I think I'll only keep the eye patch on when I'm in front of a computer and stuff. Where I don't need to use both eyes as much.

Okay, this Bell's Palsy thing isn't all that bad, it's not affecting me that much, but it does seem like it stopping me from fully enjoying jokes and such. It really sucks when you can't control your face. As far as the bar goes, it was alright. Lindz couldn't get in and I feel bad for still going, I hope he had a good night, but Andrea convinced me to stay, so I did. I mean I hadn't partied with Janelle in a while so that was fun, I forgot how outgoing and crazy that girl can be. Had to play hero a few times for both Andrea and Janelle, wasn't bad, of course the guy that was trying to dance with them gave me a death look. It kinda sucked that Janelle and them left early without telling those of us that were still there, but whatever, it was still fun. Oh yeah, I found out that I can dance apparently. We were on the stage and these two girls were standing by the speaker drinking. Black Eyed Peas' - Let's Get Retarded was playing, anyway one of them was kinda cute so I started dancing a little better, a little harder anyway. Then the other girl backed out and let me have some space and now both were watching me. Of course I didn't let on that I knew they were. Anyway, since I had the extra room I really let go, moving to the music, and there's a lull in the song, and I'm slowly moving and then BOOM! I was perfectly synced with the music and just let go. I heard one of them say "Damn, that was nice". I looked over at them at that point and they both smiled at me, damn, I shoulda wheeled them, coulda been fun ;) So I know I can dance now ;) /me feels good.

Alrighty, it's almost 4AM, that means only 4 or 5 more hours to kill until I get to my graveyard sleep pattern, which I've been trying to do for a couple days now, but I'm kinda adjusted now. Well I'm going to be doing some extra work tonight so I don't have so much to do tomorrow so off I go, oh and I need to shower too, later all, take care.

Yay! My problem has a name..... It's called Bell's Palsy. At any rate I'm on meds for now it should disappear between 2 weeks to 3 months..... Yay.... For those too lazy to go to the link here's the quick run down. Essentially I have a damaged nerve caused by something (possibly a virus) and it is causing a disruption to my control in regards to my facial muscles. I read the medical description of the medicines, one medicine says it might cause: vomiting or diarrhea. The other one says it might cause increased appetite.... does that mean they cancel each other out? All kidding aside, I must thank my friend Jason because he is the one who strongly urged I get this checked out right away. Glad it's nothing major, from both our parts. Jason's like a brother to me and I'll never forget that or take it for granted. Anyway, supposed to be headed to Tequila tonight, Shawn Desmond is supposed to be there, I don't know if I'm going to go, depends on what these meds do to me, should be fun until my body gets used to the medication. Anyway, time to rest up. Later all.

Okay, you might not notice it, but the site is on a new server. And there are a couple of cool new things. Lindz site is hosted here as well. www.sorean.ca/zeroedge will work or whatever he decides to use as a web address will be up to him. Also I have added a forum. www.sorean.ca/Forum There is only one thing that I request is that I will put things there as I see fit including your accounts, everyone is able to put in their account requests there. The forum will be changing on a continual basis, mainly because it's just installed and I need to customize it further.

It's been a pretty relaxing day, but I'm starting to get concerned, my tongue still can't taste anything and the right side of my face is kinda numb, kinda like how it feels when you first get up after sleeping on that side all night. But the thing is that it's been like that all day.... I think it's time to go see a doctor, anyway I'm off to play around with the forum some more, later guys.

So I had an interesting experience today at Superstore. I took my friends Andrea and Mitch to go grocery shopping since they don't have a car and I'm a nice guy ;). Anyway, we were done 90 minutes and $272 later. During that time a couple of elderly Chinese women surprised the crap outta me. So I'm shopping with Andrea and Mitch when these two ladies turn to me and start asking about the oatmeal in front of them. So naturally I answer. The funny thing is that they assumed that I spoke Cantonese. When I asked them why they thought I spoke Cantonese they said that it was from the way I dressed. I was clean, proper, dressed nicely and just looked like a Cantonese person. I don't get it, is it really possible to be able to tell what type of Chinese a person is? But now that I think about it, they do seem to have a point and it does kinda make me think a little more about the Asians that I do know. I think they are right, in terms of skin colour, tones, behaviour, dress style. They might be onto something, but it's kinda funny nonetheless.

Half-life 2 is so freaking cool, not only are the graphics absolutely amazing, but the physics of the game is unbelievable. The game is very intense and challenging it's actually kind of difficult on normal difficulty. Once again the game is graphically spellbinding. It's actually causing my machine to have a long load time. One point of interest was that I was actually taken aback when I realized I was grabbing ammo from besides a floating dead body, I wasn't sure what it was, but when I realized it was the semi-charred remains of another underground escapee. The game really does draw you in, I found myself doing the whole "trying to look around the corner on the screen" thing, but I'm sure we all have at one point or another. Either way, this game is going to actually going to occupy most of my time now I think, at least until I beat it.

In other news, my Guildwars preorder pack came in!! That means coming the first weekend of next month I'm not leaving my apartment. This game is going to be so fun :D

Also, I picked up a new jacket today. Price Tag: $130, reason? Because I needed a professional jacket that I could wear to social gatherings. *sigh* Little Johnny is growing up. Or at least I'm telling myself I have to. Growing up kinda sucks really, but at the same time, somewhat comforting. To know that I actually have to start growing up is comfort because it tells me that I'm actually stepping beyond my childish ways and into the realm of adulthood. I guess my first real step was me moving out here and striking out on my own. It's great to be able to do that, to know that I'm completely self sufficient now, well for the most part, I still have my student loans to pay off. At any rate, more and more of us will, if not already have, realize that we are not kids anymore. I'm just hoping that you don't wake up one day and realize "Damn.... I'm old and I've done nothing." Make the most of your youth like I am :D

Okay, so one hour has gone by at work and I, as well as my co team leader are looking forward to a nice relaxing/boring shift. So it's time to find something to do. Thankfully there was something that was created call the internet and video games. I just wish I had my machine so I could do some crazy gaming, well at least some kind of gaming anyway. *sigh* I miss my laptop.

So what did I do on my day off? I was supposed to go see a movie with a friend, but you know what? They didn't call to let me know about anything, so I ended up wasting my day, it was great fun....

*Random Thought*
Women can be the bane of a man's existence. Really they can, but with the same token they can be the (insert opposite word for bane here because I can't think of the opposite for it) of our existence as well. How can one person have the power to make us care about them? How can one person piss us off so much that we really don't know what we were pissed off about in the first place and just remember that you are mad at them? Sadly, the fact of the matter is that we as men, freely give women this power. Why? Because we think that we may have found someone worthwhile. When we are wrong, it hurts, doesn't matter what kind of guy you are, you eventually end up getting hurt, or hurting someone that you didn't mean to. Look at the newly released "Alfie" for example. I haven't seen it yet, but this is what I'm able to surmise from the trailers. Alfie, a man that is blatantly a player, a 'ladies man' is taught a harsh lesson in relationships. He ends up hurting people all for the sake of fun or pleasure. Why are there people like this in the world? I know the world is not perfect, but there have to be some times where people must realize that they are doing something wrong. Are we not born with an innate sense of respect for human life and emotions? I know that one can only hope for a perfect world, but we know, deep down that this will never happen. People are greedy and selfish.

Funny, I realized that most of my rants end up dealing with the imperfections of this world... I really would like to see a perfect world, everyone got along, no violence, no rape, no rules because no one would break them. I guess this is why I try to live my life like this, maybe people will start mimicking it and it will catch on. If I can't make the rest of the world a utopia, I will make those that interact with my world as close to that as possible.

Holy crap it's only almost 10 AM.... it's going to be a long day. I really should find more productive work related things to do. Okay, 20 to noon now, not much accomplished :P Anyway I found this Interesting correlation. Okay, from now on, no more useless posts.

Friday Five:

1) Realistically, where do you think you'll be five years from now? What job will you be working, will you have family/friends/pets, where will you be living and how?

2) Unrealistically, given a perfect life, where do you want to be five years from now?

3) What's the big barrier keeping number one and two separate and distinct, or is there one?

4) Utterly and completely abandoning realism, make up where you'll be in five years. Alien abductions and portals to alternate universes are encouraged.

5) Where did you believe you'd be now, five years ago? Pick a crucial event of the past five years and tell us where you'd be now if it had been different.

Everyone remember and never forget those that gave their lives for us so that we could be free.

Okay, this post is going to be comprised of spare time at work. So the past couple of days have been pretty good, nothing too bad actually. Convinced Lindz to finally go watch The Incredibles, made him eat his words about it not being good. What else? I pre-ordered Guildwars and paid for it in full, final tally $72.75. That is the most I have paid for any single video game, but I know it will be worth it, the game is just too damn good and addicting. the sad thing is that I bought CS:S, but I haven't been playing it all that much.... I think tonight will be a night of gaming to relax, I don't know what it is about video games that relax me so much, they only do if I do good though.

Today I get to give 3 interviews to potential employees, I'm liking this, I get to do more than just TL work, it gives it a nice change of pace. Well I'm on lunch now and one guy No showed. Okay I was wrong, the initial interviewer, who talks to the people before I get to them with the technical stuff isn't here so I guess they were postponed. Oh wait I lied, I actually had to give one. I just got back to it and this guy at least deserves a shot at a job here. He's got the phone mannerisms at least.

Well after work today I'm gonna go get my Robin Williams DVD from a friend back at school hopefully and then, like I said, relax and game.

Interview number 2 is over, it was a female kinda cool actually. She has a very diverse background, but thought we were an oil and gas company...... she shoulda done her research. Anyway, time to take care of other things for an hour, later all.

Okay so Lindz had his party tonight it was pretty good actually, good company a couple drinks and I learned how to drink responsibly. That is drink, but not to the point where you can't get home, which is where I am now :P Absinth, the drink made popular by movies such as From Hell and Eurotrip lives up to it's reputation as a strong drink, it's one of those things that will fucking knock you off your feet. So harsh and it settles in so nicely. It was done early in the night so I was able to drive. After a bit of the drinking it was a sad disappointment to find out that the hot tub wasn't working 100%. It was warm, but the jets did not come on :( John was sad, but it was still okay. The party consisted of: Myself, Lindz, Meaghan, Jeremy, Matt, Eric, Agnes, Thomas, Dustin... damn, can't remember her name, but Dustin's girlfriend (I think it was Vanessa), and Renny and Adam showed up for a bit. It was a pretty social gathering, but it lacked something....... well besides me drinking. I think I'm missing the company of a female. It's been almost 4 months..... it was rough, but I think it's good now. Granted I did love Maggie, with all my heart, but things are different now I guess. I won't ever stop loving her, but I guess it wasn't meant to be. The time that she and I had I will always cherish, and maybe should the future permit, another shot, but now isn't the time.

The sad thing is that I really don't have a life to go out and meet new girls, I've had the past 3 days off and I go back to work in about 28 hours.... damn! and I did nothing really.... I saw my friends, I played some games, but what did that accomplish? Nothing. I'm not talking about seeing my friends, that allowed me to keep my ties, but the time I spent on my own, I did nothing and it was a waste, I should get out of my apartment's gym and get a membership somewhere and take a cardio class. At any rate, maybe I should just stop trying, people say if it will come, it will come, if not then it won't so patiently I wait.

PS. There was something cool from the movie yesterday too, before the movie a guy went in front of everyone and asked us all to sing Happy Birthday for his girlfriend's 24th. I thought that was really cool because the whole theater was singing :).

I'm gonna start time stamping my posts I think. So I bought Counter-Strike: Source today, and the verdict, the graphics are amazingly awesome, I know that sounds a little high schoolish, but I don't care. The graphics in the game are absolutely breathtaking. The game play is similar to that of Steam, but nothing really noticeable. I jumped on a server and quickly ended up with a 2:1 kill ratio which is average for me so I really don't think the game play has changed much at all though some beg to differ. After I played for a couple hours I decided to see if my friends wanted to watch a movie. Thankfully they did. So after dinner, Andrea and I met up with her roommate Mitch and my friend McKenna and off to the theater we went.

The movie was absolutely great. It was so funny and since it was made by Pixar, the graphics were pretty good. They had one scene where they showed a building on fire and it actually looked real. For those that haven't seen it I suggest strongly that you do. The movie is about Superheroes, well.... I don't want to give away too much, but it is by far one of the best movies that I have seen this year if not the best. If you want to challenge that sentiment post the movie that you think might be better. I know that Shrek 2 was released this year, I saw that, but this was better. As far as time rating, this one is definitely worth your time.

Off to bed now, party at Lindz's later on today so I gotta get rested up. Everyone take care.

It was a pretty good movie over all, but it is only the last 20 minutes or so that makes it such. The majority of the movie is actually pretty dumb. The movie itself was touted a "cult classis" and I can understand that now. The kid Napoleon isn't that smart, he's actually a little weird, sorry, not a little, he's really weird. He's about every single stereotype for a high school geek there is and it is almost as if he has some kind of personality disorder. The kid is just plain weird to put it simply. There really isn't much point to the movie, it's not suspenseful, it's not that funny, it's not that anything really..... It's a movie that you can stand to not watch. I would not say that I want my time back, but it's something that I could have better spent my time on.

Well work has been the reason for my lack of updates in the past two days. I've had to put on an extra 8 hours of work to do at home after I actually leave the office... So yeah... these have been fun days. Pretty much the work consisted of listening to calls that agents have taken and reviewing the cases associated with them so they can be compared for quality and accuracy in their notes. When you have 11 agents and have to listen to two calls a piece... it's good fun.

In other news, I've been trying to set up a forum on my comp, but I don't seem to be having much luck, I didn't want to install anything else on this machine, but now it looks like I might have to install MySQL and start putting my developing stuff back on here. I kinda miss programming, but whatever, jobs don't seem to allow me to do that. Work gives me a couple of things to do web developing wise, but it's not extra money, just extra work.... well I do get days off. By the way, I think I'm stupid, for some reason the phpbb doesn't seem to want to work, I tried just using access as a back end because that way I don't have to put in MySQL, but now sadly I think I have to, I feel so dumb cuz I can't figure out why it can't find the database even though I've set it up. Ah well, maybe Lindz can give me a hand when he is free.

In other news, I have today and the next three days off. Saturday is going to be a party day at Lindz's place so that's gonna rule, hopefully we get a lot of people to go, it'll be fun I think. Game wise I've just been playing Counter-Strike as usual, it was really funny last night, a guy accused me of hacking, again. It was funny because I went 25 and 0, I even have a screenshot. I think I took it just to spite the guy. Anyway I gotta go shower and get ready for a staff meeting I have to be at, I'll be home after that so give me a shout or leave a message on MSN or here, I'll get it eventually :P Take care.

Truth

First off a shout of Happy Birthday to my bro Lindz!! The boy turns 21 today so that makes him legal throughout North America... road trip to Vegas anyone?

In other news.... there really isn't any other news except that I find some funny stuff out in the newspaper. This next little bit is especially funny to the boys and girls in my home town. A 51-year-old man in Saskatoon is charged with distributing alcohol to minors on Halloween night. The man was reported after the nine-year-olds were confused as to why they got cans of Kokanee instead of candy. Now why didn't that happen when I was trick-or-treating?

Second news item of the day, a man in Egypt killed 4 of his 7 daughters and severely injured the other 3 in a early morning massacre. The man was apparently disgruntled that he could not conceive a male into the family. If you are wondering where the mother was she had gone to stay with either family for friends after the two had an argument the night before. Perhaps they were arguing about their children? Either way it was a travesty that should not have occurred. I think that it is without a doubt wrong to take a child's life, regards of the matter. This guy deserves to have his balls cut off so that he can never have the possibility to have any more children. Yeah, I think that would be a fitting punishment for his crime. Anyway, I'm way too tired to be typing at work, later all and everyone take care.

Happy Halloween!!!! I'm sitting at work at the moment, it's Sunday morning at work and I will be here for the next 6 hours. Well my car is running again and I'm happy. *sigh* so many problems I swear. But it's good now and I think I'll just leave it for now. Maybe finance a car in the future, depending on how much my supposed raise is supposed to be.

So tonight was Lindz's b-day thing, it was alright. Joey's was pretty good, good food and boy was I full. After that we went to Jer's and chilled for a bit and now I'm at work. *sigh* work kills a social life. At least this will be the last weekend grave shift that I work. After tonight we are getting rid of this shift and giving it for agents to take care of. I mean as full timers we deserve to have some type of static schedule so this way we will always have our Saturday's free, sometimes Fridays and sometimes Sundays, but we will always have Saturday off. It's kind of better that way and I'm all for it. Now I can try to find a volleyball league that plays on Saturdays.

I've spent maybe the first day of the Guildwars preview event playing it and not much else more sadly. I've had to work and just been busy. Maybe I'll go home and play it, but that will be it sadly. The event ends today and I wish I could play it more. The good thing about when this game comes out is because it is small and allows for a lot of people to play at the same time at their discretion. Anyway I'm out now, time to get some more work done, later all.

I really should just drive my car into a lake. Why? Because after going shopping with Andrea today I was driving home when I realize the car is wobbling and making horrible noises. Guess what? The back wheels are no longer aligned. I mean that can kind of be expected considering the car has been towed twice in the past week, but it shouldn't be affecting my rear alignment that bad. I'm not driving it to work because by the time I got home, the car was making so much noise it was embarrassing. So I'm gonna bus it to work tonight, get it fixed tomorrow when I get back from work and hopefully it will be okay by then because I have to get to Lindz's b-day event around 7 or 8, it's going to be another fun (and expensive) day tomorrow... *sigh*

Okay, I just got up and I didn't feel like posting yesterday, but at any rate, my car is fixed, I just have to go pick it up. 250 bucks later that is. It was the alternator, I'm just worried that my car is going to die again because of the electrical short. I told these guys to fix it and hopefully it was just the alternator that got burnt out. A couple people I know told me that it was probably the alternator when they heard me try to start it yesterday. At any rate, it still kinda sucks that this had to happen, but whatever, I looked up my car on the net and it seems that it happens around this life time of the car.

I realized how helpful people can be sometimes. I mean I've been bitching and complaining about my car for the good portion of the past week, but a lot of the guys at work, as well as my friends online have given me suggestions and support and seem to be able to sympathize with me. Anyway time to shower and get ready for the day. Just wanted to say thanks to everyone for putting up with my bitching lately.

PS. The Guildwars world preview event starts tomorrow!! I urge all gamers to check it out, I know I'll be playing it all weekend, well when I'm not working graves on the weekend :( I have to work Friday and Saturday at midnight and probably miss Lindz's night things that he has planned for his B-day this weekend. *sigh* stupid work :P

I really hate my fucking car now!! I tried to go home and I was able to start the thing, but as soon I as I turned on the headlights the car died and the lights were dim. I got a boost and it was fine, then turned on the headlights again and it died. Then I tried starting without the boost. Nothing, a click and that was it. Either the starter or the alternator went, either way I'm not happy with this car at all right now. Once I get it fixed I'm taking it back to the place that sold it to me and I want some money for it because this is bullshit. Going to bed now cuz I'm too pissed off at my car to do anything.

I tried checking my fuses and that's not the problem with my car so it looks like I might have to take it back in again. *sigh* Stupid car. Anyway, I watched two movies yesterday, well one this morning (it's 1AM), both Chinese movies. Internal Affairs and Internal Affairs II, very seldom do I find western movies better than Asian ones and these prove the case. It talks about the triad and the police force in Hong Kong. Each side has a mole in the other organization. One of the officers had a pretty good analogy for this:

That's a rough translation, but oddly enough it's a pretty damn good one. Actually that makes me think of the one from Team America: World Police:

Now that is not what I would have chosen to be a "spark of intelligence" or even an "epiphany", but oddly enough, it has some truth to it. It's crude and not very professional, but then again it was written for American's whose average IQ is about 90 (source). So I guess the person wrote it appropriately for the audience. Team America: WP wasn't all that bad, but it most definitely isn't something you want to see for it's intelligence quotient. I would recommend that you watch the two Chinese movies I mentioned, but I don't think you'd be able to understand it. So what was this rant all about? Asian movies are on the whole good where as western movies aren't that up to par. Yeah, that's what it was about... Later all, take care.

Well the weekend was alright, kinda fun actually, got drunk Saturday night, nicely buzzed. Sadly, because of that I was sick for Sunday so I couldn't make it to work. Oh well, anyway I got my car back, turns out it was just a blown fuse, unfortunately in the process of trying to boost my car I didn't realize the radio was on so guess what? John drives without music :( 2 options right now, go out and get a CD changer installed in the back and get the place to fix the wiring while they are at it, or plug in a set of speakers into my CD player. I went with the latter option, but guess what again? The spare set of speakers that I have, only one of them work.... grrrr. Anyway it's off to another week of work, and then I work graves this weekend, *sigh*.

In other news, Kev and I lost the Stanley Cup Final against Boston, took them all the way to game 7. Stupid Patrick Roy..... so far the new season we're up 2-0-0-0 and we picked up Steve Yzerman for free and another rookie goalie. To those that play and use the fantasy draft, make sure you pick a good goalie, the lack thereof will kill you in the long run. Nothing else is new, no new toys, no diet, no significant other, just working on catching up on my bills. Hopefully I'll be able to get ahead within the next month. I think all my bills plus the coming cheque and rent and stuff will wipe me out, I'm pretty sure of that one, but after that, I'm all set :D

I've become update lazy again, then again it's only been two days :P All things considered I think everything will be okay. Life seems alright for now, that is until I find out what is wrong with my car and how much it's going to cost me to fix it. I finally had it towed today, only cost me 50 bucks to have it done, but at least it's at the shop now. *sigh* Stupid car. Anyway, I really gotta clean this mess I call a room and an apartment before the soirée this coming weekend, more of a catch up and relax kind of a night, sadly I work on Sunday.... oh well, I'll make do. What else is new..... nothing really, oh yeah, I guess I can tell people this, I can have your site hosted off my main domain so if you want something just ask, it will just be www.sorean.ca/X where X is equal to whatever you want. That's if your interested. I'm actually seriously starting to think about doing hosting, just mainly for my friends and maybe get a CS server running as well, I dunno, just a little something so I can benefit those around me, like movies, games and other such things.... cuz I don't like running this site off my own machine, I haven't built it to be a server, I built it to be a gaming rig, now it's functioning 1/2 and 1/2, it's doing okay so far, but we'll see how it turns out. If you'd like to help or contribute just drop me a line.

Edit: I just read the paper today and guess what is going on? A company called Massive Inc. is going to start a method of developing "in-game online ads"...... know what this means? Buying music in the middle of playing a game, ordering a pizza online while playing.... somehow this doesn't appeal to me and I think is a stupid thing to implement. Four companies have already signed on, UbiSoft (Prince of Persia, FarCry, Splinter Cell, PainKiller), Atari (Unreal Tournament, Civilization III, MechWarrior), Vivendi Universal (Half-Life2, Diablo II, Warcraft, Tribes), and Konami (Metal Gear Solid, Silent Hill). I'm sure you can all recognize at least some of these companies, I have played at least one game made by all of them. Why would these highly profitable companies sign up for this? The produce good games and should not need to resort to "adapting" their games to include this spamming that is going to occur. The Prince of Persia will turn to the Puppet of Pizza Hut, the Mech's will turn into walking ads for iPods. We will no longer be hunting terrorists, but hunting for the cheapest hard drive, we won't be fighting off the undead or hordes of orcs, but fighting off the massive amounts of pop-ups that will advertise the latest in penis enlargement. Sneaking around like an assassin hoping guards don't catch you will be replaced by sneaking around hoping the ads don't pop up. This is beyond my understanding, it will quickly turn games un-enjoyable. I seriously think that these companies should reconsider what they are going to do.

Okay, so it didn't go as bad as I expected it, actually the GM (General Manager) of the hotel was pretty understanding of it and apparently they have people that act like that all the time. My car still isn't running, but my roommate is going to take a look at it. And my boss was understanding of the mistake I made last night. It hasn't been bad so far, had a really fucked up dream last night, but can't remember much of it. Actually most of my dreams have been pretty fucked up lately.

It was another "action movie" type dream, more monsters, more weapons, more video game like atmosphere. One part I remember was we were playing a video game on TV and it was like a monster vs. monster dream, but we were a team of monsters trying to get away. What did I make my character do? I made him turn around and fight and let the other guys get away, I don't even remember who the other people were let alone what they looked like, but I do remember that my "monster" was overcome (what kind of video game allows that?). he got literally ripped apart and I could see his head as he started screaming when they ripped his head from his jaw.... I can't remember much else more besides working with a girl to stabilize one of our friends that was hurt.

Man, I really have fucked up dreams about monsters and shit like that. But it seems that "monsters" are what my challenge is against in life, but I'm not sure what they represent. People say that your dreams are a reflection of things in your real life, so what are these monsters? They seem to be plaguing my dreams a lot lately and I can't tell what they are. Perhaps they are my unknown fears, or maybe things I don't understand, or the challenges that face me right now. Perhaps this is the way my mind is helping me cope with real life issues by manifesting them into the "monsters" that I have to defeat in my dreams. Well if that is the case, I'm getting no where fast, I can see them, I can confront them, but no winner is ever declared.....

Technically it's now the other day and yesterday was by far been the worst day in a long time. First my car problems, I felt like staying home and I really should have cuz at work, 2 properties were having problems, I made a mistake and took down one of our biggest hotels, and to top it all off I have a guy from IBM threatening legal action because his connection didn't work and he wanted to talk to the GM of the hotel. So now what? I gave the GM my cell number to have her call me in the morning before she talks to his guy so she knows what is going on. So I'm expecting a cell call in about 5 hours, it's 1AM so off I go, g'nite all.

So after a morning of struggling with the battery to get it replaced my car still won't run... it will try to turn over, but it just doesn't catch.... son of a bitch this pisses me off, but it's probably my own fault anyhow for not turning off the light. Fuck it pisses me off. So now I'm without wheels and it's starting to get cold again...... *sigh* I never have it easy...... something always has to fuck up and go wrong just when I think I'm set....ARGH!!!!!

*sigh* Stupid car battery, but I guess it's my own partial fault. The interior lights were left on my car and I didn't check that they were off before leaving the car for over 48 hours..... so guess what? My roommate had to drive me to work today. I'm just hoping that my car will start tomorrow so I can go out and get a new battery at the very least.

After hockey Lindz and I ended up watching Slapshot.... it was a an old school hockey movie, but not bad actually considering it's time. Other than my car dying, I didn't really do much, I think I lost a day somewhere this weekend, but I'm not sure where.... it kinda sucks. Anyway, time to get back to work, catch you all later. Oh yeah, one cool thing was that my computer wasn't restarted for 13 days. Only bad then was that when I restarted it it was because it crashed.... it lost all my Yu-gi-oh cards.... that made me really really pissed of because I had accumulated all these cards only to have system restore wipe them out..... I was really pissed off about that. I really have to find more productive things to do with my time, aside from the occasional CS, chatting, poker, and odd game of DOTA, there really isn't much to do. I could learn something, but I really have no drive right now..... *sigh* I really need to find a new reason to do things..... back to the whole "meaning of life" train of thought. What really is the point? To make my life better? To make other people's lives better? I think that's why I'm here in all honesty, to fill in the void in people's lives that were missing. I've been told that I've put faith back in one person, I've been told that I've always been there when they needed me the most.... Life is fun, but it's no fun when you're alone :(

Well two second place finishes either put me up 20 bucks, even, or down 20 bucks so that night of poker was actually pretty enjoyable. Kev ended up down 100 bucks, but then again he was drunk, he never plays to win when he's drunk, he plays more to have fun, man that guy is a riot when he's drunk, so funny as some of you know. All in all a pretty damn good night, spent 7 hours playing and either gained or lost or broke even, not a bad night at all, cheap too :D

Saturday was shot, pretty busy day, but now it's a pretty relaxing day, Lindz is on his way over to play a little NHL2k3, we started a fantasy draft and were 8-0-1-0 after last night, we didn't realized that we played hockey for 3 1/2 hours...... that was a little disturbing. The day started off with Kev and I taking his car to have his tire replaced, then he and I finished our season, finished 2nd in the conference and play St. Louis in the playoffs. We cleaned the apartment, then we went to get his car. He brought the girls (any time I refer to "the girls" I'm referring to two little kids he used to baby-sit and they call him "Uncle Weasy") over so that meant I had to piss off for a while, so I took Andrea out for dinner and met up with Lindz and Renny. After dinner we went back to Lindz' place and played some gamecube. We aced all the courses, even on mirror mode, well the three of us combined (Me, Andrea, and Lindz). We only failed once, funny thing is that when Lindz and I tried a week ago, we got smoked in every way possible. But we only failed once and got 5 gold cups in 6 tries, the last car that we unlocked was sooooo pimp, gold coloured "trophy" car it was, sooooo damn nice, good acceleration, top speed, and weight. Best all around car, now I gotta figure out if there are any more secrets to unlock.

Well it's been an interesting morning thus far, but a relaxing one. I had to drive Joey to the airport for his flight at 9, so I was done there about 8:30, which left me doing nothing for the major portion of the morning. So I figured I'd finally get my breaks done, I drop the car off and they said it would be about 2 or 3 hours. So I figured I'd kill some time in the area. There was a value village nearby so off I trekked. I found a new pair of pants, a new shirt, Pet Sematary, by Stephen King, and a 14 inch monitor for dual display. How much did that all come out to? $29.32. The monitor cost me 8 bucks :) It was a good deal I think. The only problem now is that I have to clear out a shelf in order to put the monitors in a good area, but it won't be too bad, I already have it all planned out, just going to be a "cleaning" day tomorrow which won't be too bad. I really have to clean my desk up anyhow.

After my spending at VV I was able to find a little breakfast diner in the area and have myself a good little breakfast, eggs, toast, bacon, banana, and a 2% chocolate milk. It was a good time and I killed about 30 minutes or so and read the paper while I was at it. If you are wondering, yes I am off the diet for a little bit anyhow. Working the grave and then coming off of it and not eating properly at the same time just killed me. Tally to date: 15 pounds in 2 months.

I ventured off to Chinook mall and checked out EB and Spencer's, cool stuff, but I refrained from spending more money which was a good thing.
***Warning!!!! Weird thoughts coming out here***
As I kept walking around the mall I saw some seniors all sitting in a little cushioned area, 2 facing 2 and 1 on each end forming a sort of rectangle. Anyone every watch the movie Equilibrium?? Remember the scene where he kills all the guards after they find the puppy in his trunk? How with 3 moves he took out about 6 guys...... yeah, that thought entered my mind and just thought about how easy it would have been. I mean the elderly are generally helpless and it disturbs me how some people actually do prey on them. Hell the other day I read that a 32 year old man beat up a 75 year old lady because he thought she hit his dog....... she didn't, she was shooing him away from her dog, the man had a rottweiler. It's up to us young to take care of the old.

I ended up with a hot chocolate and sat down to read Pet Sematary, kinda good so far, but I got my car back and now I'm at home and happy :) Tonight is going to be a night of gambling. Headed to a friend's place for some Texas Hold'em, tourney style so it'll be some good fun. Anyway the afternoon is young and I'm getting away from this machine, everyone take care.

I just want today to be over....... the day is just dragging on and on and on and on and on and on....... okay time to stop that. Anyway, I am going to have to get my brakes fixed, I finally talked to the dealership today and they gave me the name of a place that I have to take my car to so that they can fix my breaks and break line which failed the insurance inspection. Hopefully I can get that done this weekend and then my insurance will be taken care of for the next year. Things are finally falling into place.... well minus relationship wise. At one point in time it was great, now.... not so much, I miss having someone that I consider my significant other. I dunno, I think it's just the loneliness that just gets to me. Miss the feeling of holding someone who I know cares about me, but whatever, whatever will be will be, the future's not ours to see, que sera sera.

In other news..... I am saddened by the fact that Christopher Reeves died this past weekend. He was truly an inspiration to everyone. I'm tempted to go and rent the first couple Superman movies now, they were actually shot in the Alberta area, would be kinda neat to see the man in his prime. A moment of silence for the departed.

Edit: I'm having problems with my shoutbox, I'm working on it.
Edit 2: I think I fixed it, if it is not working, please message me.

Finally some time off with nothing to do tonight. Well I did, but I just woke up from a nap..... it's 7:45. Was supposed to go to a birthday dinner for a friend, but felt like shit after work. This is the first night off in a long time. The past couple of days have been kinda fun. For Friday and Saturday I spent most of it driving Andrea and Mitch around so we could get food for the Turkey day dinner. It was yummy. I went there after work on Sunday and that's all we did. A turkey dinner, sure I cheated on my diet, but it was well worth it. Kudos to my friends that day for a meal well made. The sad thing is that about 10 people came and I paid for the majority of the meals. To those that made it it doesn't matter much, but some of those guys I don't even know..... they were Mitch's friends, but whatever. It was only a small amount all things considered. *sigh* woulda been nice to see them at least stay and help clean up, but alas, some people are not quite as generous as I was that day. Nothing is really new in my world, just enjoyed a nap and a small gaming session so now I'm gonna see my my roomie wants to play some hockey, catch you all later.

Edit 2: Oh yeah, sometime in that weekend, Lindz, Meg, Andrea, and Meg's friend came over to watch Boondock Saints, one of the best movies I've ever seen in my opinion, they didn't like the cat part :P But that night was pretty fun, granted the fact that Meg and her friend Colleen were pretty loud :P What else do you expect from a 21(Colleen) and 17(Meg) year old?

Some people really disgust me you know that? Remember how I said the more I read the paper the more I get disgusted with the world and it's current state? Well it happened again. This time it's the young not playing by the rules:

Obviously these kids were looking for a quick buck and greed got the better of them. But geez, it really does make it bad for a number of people. This one crime reinforces several stereo types. Don't get me wrong, I don't believe in these, but society most definitely does:

*sigh* I wish there was something I could do about this world to make it a safe place for all. Saving me from becoming a communist dictator would further the world's current state. Sadly, we cannot govern all all the time, police are out there, but they are not omnipotent. Maybe this is why people are starting to develop the "Big Brother" approach. Clothing are starting to be produced with RFID's to track where the articles of clothing are going, beyond the store. Cell phones have GPS enabled on them allowing parents to track the movements and even driving habits of their young. Are we really going the way that is "prophesied" in the Matrix? A world where the majority of menial labour is done by robots and eventually realizing AI? I know that we are already trying to create this, take a look at Deep Blue for example. IBM's attempt at creating a chess player. Granted it's functionality is limited and the size to drive this massive "intelligence" is huge, but it is all a matter of time. Processors are getting smaller, code is being written more efficiently, and the physical size of computers are becoming smaller. Hell, if you took a computer and tried to make it fit inside a human body, it's easily obtainable. Movies have far gone and exploited the paranoia that machines eventually become corrupt and turn upon their makers. If you watch I, Robot (Don't compare it to the book) the fundamental there is correct. The they had 3 basic rules, ones that protected the sanctity of human life, but their major flaw was that everything was controlled by a central AI. This is where the problem comes into effect, in the Matrix series, I, Robot, and Terminator series all computers were governed by ONE central "being" as it were. If all these systems did not have one central AI controlling them, it might not cause such a problem. Granted even if that there were two or three what's to say that the one that became corrupt first did not write a virus or code to attack the other governing bodies and corrupting them to it's own evil means. You know what? The more I write about this the more I can see that it relates to real world politics. Communism, Democracy, Dictatorship, Anarchy, Martial Law........ none of them are perfect, but yet some of them are perfect for the areas they are used. Maybe I am a Communist at heart, but is it wrong that I want what is fair? Wanting that everyone to pull their fair share and all are able to reap the rewards of their works? Maybe this is why I have such a problem with the article I read today. Those two people did not earn that money they just took it. It wasn't fair, it upset the balance of things. Karma.... maybe it's the one thing I should believe in in this world... in a world where many don't believe in anything...

Okay, I'm cheaping out here, someone sent me a survey and here is everything, I think I e-mailed the majority of you, but those that I didn't, here ya go.

1. Name spelled backwards: John Kaiyung Mach -> hcaM gunyiaK nhoJ
2. Have you ever moved? A couple times, but haven't in a year and a half
3. What's your favourite food? Anything but steamed brown rice and chicken.
4. Where were your parents born? Both somewhere in Vietnam. One in Hanoi and one in Saigon I believe.
5. Your bed is single, double, queen, king? Double with room for more than just one
6. Your favourite sport to play? Volleyball
7. How many kids do you want? Either Zero or Two, probably end up with two.
9. Type of music you dislike? I pretty much like everything.
10. Colour of your school bag? 16 years of it is enough for now. BsC to my name already :)
11. Do you have cable? That I do, but movies, computer, and gamecube are more entertaining.
12. Favourite 80's song? La Bouche - Sweet dreams. Gotta love that retro techno
13. Ever prank call someone? I vaguely remember something in first semester, but it wasn't really me, I think I was passed out drunk already.
14. Ever get a parking ticket? Nope.
15. Would you ever go bungee jumping or skydiving? I don't think I could ever do either.
16. Furthest place you have ever traveled? Buffalo New York, or Montreal, or Vancouver, depending on where the starting point is.
17. Have you ever bowled 300? I wish, got 283 once in 5 pin though
18. What's your favourite comic strip? Dilbert / Fox Trot and Control+Alt+Delete
19. Do you really know all the words to the national anthem? Yes indeedy
20. Bath or shower? Shower if I'm alone.... with someone else.... either one works.
21. Best movie you have seen in the last month? Gonna have to go with Lnidz on this one, Resident Evil: Apocalypse
22. Chips or popcorn? Chips, mmmm sour cream and onion.
23. Beer or ale? I'll have a coffee... beer? coffee! Beer? c-o, b-e
24. Ever smoke peanut shells? Who the hell does that?
25. Do you eat the skin on chicken? When I'm not on my diet yes.
27. Favourite kind of cookies? Mmmmm cookie..... chocolate chip, make that double, with dark and white chocolate :D
29. Your favourite vegetable? What are veg-e-ta-bles?
30. Your favourite fruit? Millions of peaches, peaches for me, millions of peaches for free.
31. Have you ever won a trophy? In grade 6, Patroller of the year. I got to go on a trip to Regina... w00t
32. Are you a good cook? I consider myself a pretty good chef. My friends can attest to that I think.
33. Do you know how to pump your own gas? Yes I can, only problem was that with my new car, the first time I went I actually had to stop and check which side the gas panel was on.
34. Ever order an article from an infomercial? Ummmm no.
35. Do you enjoy your present job? Yeah I do, just wish it was more of a challenge sometimes.
36. Do you flex in front of your mirror? Mirrors are evil, they're gateways into another dimension.
37. Would you rather be a millionaire or find true love? without a doubt it would have to be true love. Something that I'm starting to think that I'm foolishly believing in.
38. Do you believe in love at first sight? I believe in lust at first site.... j/k. Anything can happen in this world as I've found out.
39. Ever call a 1-800 #? Oh do I ever! Oh wait, I thought that said 1-900...
40. What is a major turn on? Thigh length skirts
41. All time favourite Saturday night live characters? Never watched the show.
42. What are your pets names? I have a teddy bear named Buddy, but no pets.
43. Do you want people to send this back? Yessum
44. How many speeding tickets have you had in your life? 1, the first time coming back from Sask in my old car.
45. What's your favourite magazine? I don't really read magazines, but Maxim is definitely a good one.
46. What is one thing you do that relaxes you? This is gonna sound funny, but a scented candle and playing counter-strike and doing good on it. I figure the candle relaxes my physical senses and the counter-strike takes care of my psychological senses.

Now, in other news, it has been my most productive night this week. I've done 2 cases, both of which took me an hour, but it was a well spent 2 hours. It was technically and logically taxing, it felt good to be able to solve the last one. It actually felt good to be productive at work, I know, sounds dumb, but if I'm getting paid I should be doing something.

Two days ago was a rough day of sleeping, I had to get my car inspected for my insurance company so I dropped the car off approximately at 8AM, got home at 9, slept until noon, woken up bye the place for my car inspection, went to get my car, got home at 1, slept until 3 where Andrea called and woke me up to find out when my day off was, went back to sleep and woke up about 6. That was the worst sleeping pattern ever. Anyway, I'm out soon, talk to you all later, remember to leave a shout if you want to.

Day 2 of night graves, you know these shifts actually aren't all that bad. I can survive them pretty good, long as I can work them for a long period of time. Better than weekend graves, 2 days and then onto the mornings. Now that shift sucks. Anyway, I have about 5 days left to get my car inspected as per my insurance company, only problem is that I work graves, by the time anything opens, I'm ready for bed :P I'll see if I can do it today.

There were 3 things I was going to post about, but now I can't remember them all. I know one of them was that I'm pretty sure that pain is all in your mind. It's all perceived there, think about it for a second. We never know we are hurt until we see it or someone tells us of it. Also, when people are hypnotized, they do not realize what is going on, or doped up on anesthetic either. They simply do not feel pain. The mind is suggested that it should not feel pain and it doesn't, different parts of the mind are distracted as to not "feel" pain, but do we really feel pain? If someone says they will do something, like pinch you, even with your eyes closed, you know they are going to pinch you, which causes pain. As soon as they do something that feels like that, the body sends out a pain signal I guess. Somehow I think I'm arguing a moot point, but meh. I'm bored and it's 3:30 in the morning, and I'm at work too. Yay for tired rambles :P

I got my insurance and plates!!! I can drive again and it feels good to have wheels again, unfortunately, it set me back about 600 for the day, insurance, plates, gas. I'll probably still have to put out a bit more for a safety inspection which the Insurance company needs.

Yesterday was a bit of a pisser, but it ended up alright I guess. It was my cheat day for my diet so me, Lindz, and Meaghan went to the Olive Garden for dinner, all I can say is mmmmmmmm Pork Parmigiana. Anyway, Joey was there too, but he had to jet off for Edmonton after dinner which was alright. Post meal time we went to watch The Forgotten. I didn't really know what it was about so I thought it'd be interesting. All I have to say is that those who know nothing about the movie, it is worth your time and money. Walking in without knowing a thing about the movie and then watching it play out is amazing. It was one of the better suspense movies I've seen recently. What else happened... I got a hair cut, and I also got cut too. My friend Sonia was supposed to join us for dinner and movies, just to even things out, but guess what? Yeah..... let's just say I'm not very pleased with her at the moment. *sigh* people can let you down so very much at times. I guess I shouldn't really be talking about letting people down...... (Listen to Burn by Usher and you might have some idea)

Edit: While we were waiting for the movie to start, there was an ad with Mila Jovovich on it and me, Lindz, and Meaghan were talking:

Me: She's so hot.
Meg: Yeah, I'd hit it.
Lindz: She probably swings both ways (I already knew he was talking about Mila)
Meg: Are you talking about me or her?

Once again the world has found a way to make me sick, I really think it's the fact that I don't like senseless death or improper/immoral actions of people. This time it was a man that walked into a day care and started shooting kids. A 3 year-old died...... it's just not right. This does bring something to my mind though. While watching Collateral, staring Tom Cruise, his character had a line: "All over the world, hundreds are killed in so called "Holy Wars", and yet you're caring about this one poor slob that I just killed?" Why is the fact that because a large amount of people that we do not really take any notice to it, but we notice individual deaths? The war on Iraq would be a great example, how man 'insurgents' have been executed and how many allied soldiers have fallen? The count must be in the hundreds by now, but yet, all we know is Pat Tillman. Why? Because he was a single individual who gave up a lot in order to put his country first. Other people deserve the same respect as Tillman does, nothing less, they gave their lives for their country as well. Now, by all means, I am not being pro-Bush here, in fact I'm against him and his war. But I guess this argument comes past it's time.

Wow.... I went to make sure that I had spelled Mr. Tillman's name right and found this. Now I will agree with the individual when he says that it is over hyped a bit, but the guy is still a fucking idiot with no sense of sympathy. It's because of Tillman that this guy is still around, it's because of people like Tillman that he does not have to go fight this war. Let's see how he likes it if the US decided to call a draft again. For fuck sakes, Tillman gave his life for the country, as did many of those that had lived in the USA, show him the same respect.

In other news, I had the strangest dream last night. It was like a mix of Resident Evil: Apocalypse, Counter-Strike, and Alien vs. Predator. I really don't know how to explain it anymore than that. I don't remember much of it, but I do kinda remember that it was like playing real life counter-strike with cut scenes :P That's why dreams are fun :D I remember like marines or some type of army coming for me and of course I'm hiding cuz I don't know why they are after me. Next thing I know, I see this weird ass monster start attacking the marines. It looks human, but then when it jumps, it's torso opened up to change into 4.... I can only describe it as tentacles and grabs a hold of a marine, rips off 4 strips of flesh or something and of course the marine collapses. I figure in this confusion I should run away, and so I do. All of a sudden, I notice that I have a nice shiny, silver, .50 cal Desert Eagle in my hand. Now normally I probably couldn't fire this guy with one hand, but it's a dream so I can. Anyway, I can hear gun fire start as the marines start attacking this thing. Well I figure the only way to get outta here would be to take the marines out. So off I go, sneaking behind the marines and placing some nice headshots, running away, reloading and just killing these marines. But for some reason, I'm compelled to go back and help that beast, probably because I feel I owe him one because he provided the distraction so I could slip away. After a little while, I shoot the last marine and then the thing spots me.... lunges for me, tentacles extended, and I'm thinking I'm gonna die. Then he grabs the door frame in which I was standing and kicks me down. I land flat on my back and see that there was a marine standing behind me. Instinctively, I take my gun and unload on this guy. This "monster" feeds on one of the dead marines as I procure a new M4 for myself. As we exit the room, I realize that we are in some type of hotel. The "humanoid" comes with me and acts..... well normal. We wander through it for a while and then I see my friend Andrea, I grip the M4 in anticipation and look at the beast. He, and I use that term sparsely, from what it looked like had the facial features of a male. Looked at me as if he understood that he should not take her. Andrea was dressed in a red dress, kinda like the one that Mila wore in the first Resident Evil movie. Next thing I remember was someone breaking through the window and waking up. In retrospect, it was a very cool dream, I mean the parts where I went around assassinating the marines was fun, just like a game :P Everything else was just plain weird. Ah well, that's what dreams are supposed to be, never to be understood.

And now back to your regularly scheduled programming. So I was MIA for 3 days :P No big loss I hope. Sorry for not updating everyone, but remember, you can always leave one on MSN and I'll reply eventually.

So what has gone on in the past 3 days? Nothing. Well I did go to a real poker tourney on Friday, lost 40 bucks at the casino, ended up about 27 or 28 outta 46 people so that wasn't too bad, especially for my first time and playing limit. I hate playing limit hold'em. It's no fun and you can't bluff people out. After that I ended up meeting my friend Sonia, Irene and Ajay for a movie. We rented Red Dragon, I've seen it already, but it is a very good movie nonetheless.

Yesterday, I did absolutely fuck all, felt sick all day, either that or just apathy. It kinda sucks being single, you get this feeling of loneliness when you have nothing to do and no one to call up to do something with. I was supposed to go to Janelle's Birthday party, but I really didn't feel well enough. Later on, Andrea asked me to go to the bar, once again I passed. Just stayed at home, worked out, played games, and watched 2 movies. Wow.... what an exciting day :P

On a brighter note, my new car insurance is going to run about 2520, in comparison to the 4875 that they quoted me earlier. So as of October 1st, I will have a car again!! :D Well time to jet off to work, everyone take care.

The more and more that I read the newspaper the more I'm grossed out by it. Today, I read that in Milwaukee that two boys, aged 13 and 11 tried to rape their 67 year-old neighbour. How fucking sick and disgusting is that? I was really appalled that some boys can do that, like really? What are they thinking? Least they had the sense to use a condom..... not! Fucking disgusting kids, I hope they rot in hell for that. Geez.

I remembered what I was going to write about yesterday, but forgot. It was about a movie called The LadyKillers staring Tom Hanks. DO NOT, I REPEAT, DO NOT WATCH THIS MOVIE. To quote a cancelled cartoon that was once on after The Simpsons, "It Stinks!!" Anyone know the cartoon? Anyway, the movie was pretty good except for the ending. Just save yourself the money and time and go rollerblading instead. Anyway, I'm out for now people, everyone take care.

Once again the media distorts what people actually say. A while ago, there was an article from a Mr. Eugene Stickland regarding cyber cafés and how he didn't know enough about computers and how he had to go get his work done at a CC because he spilled wine on his laptop. Either way, he wrote the article almost protraying himself as an elitest, which I so do not like. What makes this guy think better than us? Anyway, below are the two differences, the one that was printed can be found here, the one on the left is a quick copy of the one printed, and the one on the right is the one that I wrote.

Welcome to cyber world
Calgary Herald
Wednesday, September 22, 2004

Cyber cafes - Re: "Dude! This laptop cocktail is harsh," Eugene Stickland, Opinion, Sept. 11.

It seems Eugene Stickland has a problem holding a wine glass and stereotyping those who frequent cyber cafes. He described the cafe he visited as "hell on earth." He also went into detail about how the patrons' language comprised only three words and his environment was filled with the sounds of explosions, sirens and gunfire.

Welcome to the gaming world, Eugene.

I frequent these establishments, but my vocabulary contains many more than three words.

This column was nothing more than Stickland spewing about how technically handicapped he is and how he had to degrade himself to visit a cyber cafe.

There are many cyber cafes unlike the one Stickland described.

If Stickland had not been so clumsy with his chardonnay, he would not have had to go out into the "unknown."

John K. Mach,

Calgary

It seems that Mr. Stickland has some problems in his life:
1. He has a problem holding a wine glass.
2. He is stereotyping those that frequent cyber cafés.

Now it is not fine to stereotype those that frequent these
establishments because he is not used to their nature. He described
the one he visited as "hell on earth". He also goes into detail about
how their language only comprises of three words and his environment
is filled with sounds of explosions, sirens and gunfire. Welcome to
the gaming world Mr. Stickland.

I am one of those that frequent these establishments, but my
vocabulary contains much more than a sparse three words. Now this may not ring true for all, but to judge a selected population is unjust
and unfair to those that do pay mind to these places. The article is
nothing more than Mr. Stickland spewing about how technically
handicapped he is and how he had to degrade himself to visit a place
like that.

The fact of the matter is that there are many cyber cafés that are not
like that which you described nor does their populace contain those
individuals that he mentioned. If Mr. Stickland has not been so
clumsy with his Chardonnay he would not have had to go out into the
"unknown" and work from the comfort of his own home. He put himself
in that situation and as such he should not be complaining about it
and just do the work he is being paid to do.

Yay for being distorted!! No offense, but it's almost as if the Calgary Herald "dumbed me down" a notch or two. Correct me if I'm wrong, but the one on the right seems much more educated/sophisticated than what they printed, and I still try to show Mr. Stickland some respect. But whatever, the media has always distorted things. Hence why I like my page, it's unscripted, and I'm uncensored.

Second item, my diet doesn't seem to be working, but I think it know what the problem is. I have to work out along with eat right. So far it's been 4 days and I've dropped a pound. The only difference from last time is that I worked out more often compared to this time where I'm ashamed to admin that I've worked out none. But, after work today I am going down to the gym. There is still another 10 days left and I'll be going hard, no excuses, pure self driven will :D. That I am good at.

Third. I don't like how this world works. The kid that wrote netsky and sasser now has a job with a firewall company. *sigh* I'll give the kid props for being smart, but not for wrecking the world. This kid caused so many problems at work I don't even know why he's being rewarded. I talked this issue over with a couple of co-workers and they brought up a good point. Anyone ever watch Catch Me If You Can? Same principle, but if you look at it from the point of view where these geniuses are recruited to the helpful side rather than the harmful side.

There was another thing, but now I can't remember..... I got distracted with work stuff. Oh well, I guess that's enough of a rant for now. Everyone take care.

Well yesterday was a pretty good day. I was up but Kev and I were playing NHL2k3 for like 3 hours before I went to work, but it was rough, went 2-6-1-2. Damn tough teams. Anyway, yesterday was crazy at work, so busy.... my head was hurting by the time I got home. Anyway, got home and tried to stay up but I just couldn't too tried and I was up at 3AM today. Slowly getting back to normal I think, too bad my right hand seems to be acting up. I think it might be CTS... Every time I hold a mouse a certain way, my middle finger twitches, it is not a pleasant feeling. It's down right scary, I like playing my games :( Good thing I have my gamecube for that :D But still, I think I'll be cutting back from gaming for a while. Which to many people should be a good thing.

9 more days til I can drive!! Assuming that I can find proper insurance and plates for my car. I can't wait for wheels again!! Oh yeah, everyone should be checking my MSN pic, just send me a message and see.

It's 1 AM and I just got up. I ended up going to the party anyway, but I left early, well for a party anyway. It was an alright get together, but full of younger kids, felt old :P. They were mostly 18 and 19, so yeah.... a little out of place. I only got 4 hours of sleep and worked from 7 until 3:30. After that I came home and went to bed. Hence why I am up now instead. I'll be cleaning and making dinner up until I have to go back to work in about 5 hours. Yay! /end sarcasm.

In other news, I'm back on the diet again so no more junk food, or actually anything that tastes like food at all :P Brown rice and chicken breasts again. This time it doesn't seem so bad though. Went and bought frozen chicken breasts instead of the fresh stuff because it's cheaper and it seems like it is a lot more moist than the fresh stuff. So it's not bad so far. Then again it's also been only one day. Start weight: 221 (According to the "broken" scale). So in two weeks it will be interesting to see how it turns out this time. The only difference is that after these two weeks I'll be going on a training diet where I'll be working out even harder and my food intake will be equivalent of six meals a day. It may sound like a lot, but keep in mind a protein shake = 1 meal.

Ugh, I feel like shit. I slept for almost 12 hours after Lindz left last night and I'm supposed to be at a party in a couple of hours.... I think I'm gonna pass. In other news, yesterday was pretty fun. Lindz was over for a good portion of the day and we spent it all playing gamecube :D As I'm feeling sick and lazy:

That was Lindz post, but yeah, I agree with him about the fact that the lockout sucks, but I am not going to touch Mario golf I think, he can play that one to his heart's content :P

I don't think I've mentioned it yet, but I'm playing poker for real money online now. The place I play at, www.playtigergaming.com gave me 10 free bucks so now I've taken that 10 dollars and made it into 24. It's a slow process, but hey, it's work so far. I'm just playing Texas hold'em for 10/20 cent blinds. Okay, I'm getting tired, going back to bed, I'm sure you can tell from that web cam pic that I look like shit. Later all, take care.

Okay, so yesterday didn't end up as boring as I thought. After I made it through my shift, I found out that Joey was in town. So after work, we went for wings and beer with the guy and dropped him off at the airport. After that, Lindz was supposed to meet Meghan for some pool, but we had time to kill until she we allowed to go out. So Lindz and I hit up Net-Planet, our cyber café hang out. After owning it up on a public CS server Lindz and I end up going to the pool hall to meet up with Meghan. She seems like a really nice girl. Funny, outgoing, and generally a pretty free spirit. Apes ca, je returné chez moi. I was up til about midnight and then went to bed.

Ahhhhhh how glorious it feels to be completely rested. Slept for a good solid 10 hours. Knowing that I don't have to get up feels good. Anyway, went in for my staff meeting and now I have a gamecube :D. It's so fun to play, like I said, I had Melee and Link, I also have NHL 2003, Metroid Prime, Soul Caliber II, and the list goes on for 10 games. Too lazy now to place them all here, but I will eventually.

Oh yeah, if you look to the left, I now have my Alberta's drivers license, no more need to worry about bars and stuff like that. Picture is horrible though :P Then again everyone says their driver's license pic is bad. Anyway, off to either play some more CS or I think I'm gonna play around with my new gamecube, later all and everyone take care!!

Okay..... it's 7:57AM and I'm ready to go back to bed already. This kind of sucks. Oh well, I get my gamecube today :D This excites me. Looking forward to playing more games. Actually, it's more to have around for parties and stuff like that. Playing Mario Party or Smash Brothers Melee and getting drunk at the same time is fun. Mind you, I don't really know the next time I'll be having a party.... I should have one soon, haven't thrown one in a while. This weekend is supposed to be Jer's party, hopefully that's still a go and next week is going to be my friend Janelle's birthday party. Yay for a busy life!

In other news, at least for the rest of this week and most of next I have a pretty standard schedule so it's not that bad. Working mornings all this week and next week too so I can get used to a regular pattern. Sadly, starting Sunday, I'm back to my diet. Nothing but brown rice and chicken.... mmm yummy! Another interesting fact. According to Kevin, he weighed himself on a digital scale at the gym the other day and it said he weighed 213, at home he comes in at 220. Now if that is true then my home scale is off and I'm at 213 which is a lot better than what I thought I was at. Still doesn't make me feel good about it though, I want to be at under 200. All in good time though, all in good time, much like most things in life.

Heh, time, there's a funny concept. If it were not called time what would it be? How would the passing of a moment be measured? how could we see the speed of something? Sadly, we're all running out of time. From the moment we were born we are all dying, morbid as it sounds it's true. It's kind of like the riddle of walking into a forest. How far can a person be walking into the forest? Only half way because he is then walking out of the forest. As I look around, time is passing and yet I sit here at a machine at work to earn money so I can spend more time doing nothing... what an odd cycle, but such is the real world. A reality that we must abide by.

Who ever thought that bowling could make your legs so sore? Then again, after about 90+ minutes of continuous bowling. They were more sore than they were last night.

Someone suggest something to do with my spare time. I'm really not motivated to do anything at the moment. I'm going to be starting the diet again soon and working out to it as well. So there's motivation there. Other than that though, I really have nothing to do, I thought about learning Flash, still in the process, but the tutorial videos that I found have this guy with such a monotone voice. Hard to trudge though it. I am finding myself reading a lot more though. Which is a good thing. I'm am still a large fan of Anne Rice. Her ideas about the occult are as intriguing as the stories that she tells. If you are at all interested in vampires, I suggest that you read her Vampire Chronicle series. I found the 5th book last night at the bookstore. That little bookstore in front of my place must have taken at least a hundred bucks by now. Ah well, a collection has begun.

I think I've really picked up my game in CS. I can run though most maps with relative ease, some players accuse me of hacking, but whatever, they'll never prove it because I'm straight legit. Damn, I'm only 21.... wonder what would have happened if I spent my early years playing CS instead of TFC where I was a near god at that too. *sigh* the good old days with Krux... I sometimes still wonder what ever happened to that guy, Junkie I still talk to, Kloroform, there's another name from the day, the only demo to rival my brother at that game. I miss that game, I should try playing again sometime. Anyway I'm out for now, later all.

Alright, time for my second ever morning shift. It actually isn't all that bad, I get to see the sunrise and what a beautiful one it was today, wish I had a camera to take a picture of it.

Tonight, Lindz and I are going bowling, going to see if we can get a bunch of other people going too. It's only 5 bucks for 3 hours apparently. We've gone before and it's been fun. I hope that I can find more people to go, so anyone who wants to go bowling and checks this today before 6, give me a shout on my cell. All in all it's been pretty boring lately. Oh, I'm going to be buying a gamecube from a friend, it comes with 3 controllers, 2 memory cards, and 10 games; all for 300 bucks. It's a pretty good deal I think.

Okay, mornings are pretty dead here. Only 5 more hours to go.... I'll probably update again later. Everyone take care.

Edit: Bowling was fun, ended up beating Lindz 4 games to 3, he was up 3 to 1 at one point ;) Anyway my legs are really sore and so is my arm. I guess that happens when you bowl for 2 hours with just you and a friend. It's gonna be weird tomorrow.... anyway off to bed now, it's 11 and I have to be up at 5 so I can get to work on time and not tired. Later everyone!!

These night shifts suck. Well they are good that it is pretty dead, but it sucks in the term that my body is not used to this for just 2 days. It's not fair to my body!! Oh yeah, I have to be back at work Monday morning. I kinda get an extra day off, but it still sucks :P. Don't get me wrong, I love my job, just like to bitch about anything at the moment. Putting in a lot of hours and not having much of a social life.

It's been a while, but I watch an episode of South Park today. It was on my roommate's computer and I was bored. Anyway it's a pretty funny show. This one had David Blaine star as a cult leader, it was kinda funny. but there was one funny part in particular that I remember.

"Moses how do you kill a giant stone Abraham Lincoln?"
"With a giant stone John Wilkes Booth."

*Lest we not forget those who died in the tragedy three years ago. I'd like everyone to take a moment of silence for them.*
One worldly event changes the course of history forever. The Assassination of a man caused the first world war. The bitter outcome of the first drove the second. It seems like this world is forever locked in a cycle to repeat itself.

In other news, In Saskatoon, I'm sure you've (those that live there) that dogs have been killed by strychnine-laced (rat poison) wieners and 2 kids have been made ill by them. How fucking morbid do you have to be to pull of shit like this? Then again this reminds me of the "Aspirin" killings of a couple years ago. One of the worlds biggest unsolved mysteries. For those that don't know, a couple of years ago people were killed by taking what they thought was aspirin. This was when drugs were being sold in capsule form. What someone had done was remove the medicine from the encasing and then replaced it with poison, I can't remember the exact drug that it was, but it was something nasty, possibly cyanide. Either way, seems like someone is trying to copy that and it's absolutely horrid.

Onto other things. I'm actually at work right now and it's 1 in the morning. I get to work from midnight to 7:45 on both Friday and Saturday night. I then get all of Sunday off and come back Monday morning at 7AM....sounds like fun. Anyway before coming in for this shift me, Lindz, and McKenna went to go see Resident Evil: Apocalypse the movie was great, 94 minutes of nonstop action, even the melodramatic moments were packed full of suspense. The only sad thing was that the three of us sat in front of a row of, what I assume to be upper high school teenagers. These kids were absolutely horrible as far as comments to the movie and being loud. People went to see the movie for that. Not listen to this stupid jerks goof off and be plain jackasses. The story of RE:A is not really existent, but the action is there. I even found myself jumping for the first moments of the movie, but then after a few "scary" scenes it was completely outta my system. probably because I had gotten used to the scare style of the director.

Well time to get some reading done and make sure that all my agents are comfy. Later all and take care.

So I tried to go get plates for my car today as my landlord said I needed them. Apparently in Alberta, you must have plates and insurance at the same time. all I wanted to do was register my car under my name. Oh well, they can wait another 3 weeks for it then.

No one better be coming up to visit for the next 2 weeks cuz I don't have a driver's license to use to get into bars. It really sucks, but I have no choice. I had to surrender up my Saskatchewan license in order to get my Alberta one mailed to me.... this is gonna be a nice 2 week wait. Seems like the site if going through a great transition, slowly building up a base for it now. If anyone wants an e-mail addy @sorean.ca leave me a message in the shoutbox. Oh yeah, if anyone reading this wants a gmail account, I have about 16 to give away again. Anyway that's it for now. Everyone take care.

Edit: Seems like I'm posting twice a day, one from work and once later at night. It's 3AM and I'm still playing poker. I'm up 20 grand, not counting how I do in the one I'm currently in. I realized that if I play smart, going by logic rather than relying on luck I can/do win more often than not. Too bad luck has a lot to do with it too. I can play smart all the way through, calculating the only hand that could beat me is a very small chance, but then it does come up. Ah well, just finished that last one now and I'm up a total of 26k for the night, not bad for about 2 hours.

www.sorean.ca is now live!! Everyone please update your favorites and other links. Those of you that are using www.sorean.tk , the link will stop working over the next couple of days, but it may be a back up. I have to decide what I'm going to do with it. But I do want everyone to start using www.sorean.ca because I'm damn proud to be Canadian!! Took me a while to get this processed, but it is finally up, I just have some other stuff to add/take care of as far as the programming of this is concerned. I have to change the contact info for this page as well. Anyway, gotta get ready for work, I'll fix everything else later.

Edit: In other news today, www.johnmach.com is also alive and kicking, the only reason that it is not getting the fanfare it deserves is because it is just my greatly depreciated site in comparison to this one. I really should change the layout/come up with a new one. Other than that, pretty slack day. Work has been fairly busy, just not for me :D.

After much fighting to try to get a user login for my shoutbox I gave up. I was getting too many errors to try to solve. The good thing is that even without knowing PHP I can read the code well enough to figure out what exactly is going on. Oh yeah, I gave up on PHP and I think I'm going to try to redo this site in flash..... actually after remembering the flash thing from last night, maybe just a portion of the page in flash. Maybe I'll become a flash guru as there aren't many out there. Yeah, that's it. Man, I've been trying so many things lately I really should just stick with one, but meh, life is fun.

Well here's some crazy shit for everyone to watch, you must watch this before continuing with the rest of my rant today.

Okay, that conspiracy theory shit never really flew with me, but you know what? This little flash movie makes you think. That combined with today's newspaper article in the Herald about how Russia downplayed the number of children held in the hostage taking incident really makes me start disbelieving in political figures more and more. What has the world really hidden from all of us to see? What ever happen to UFO's, Yeti, Bigfoot, Nessie? All these things had me so intrigued as a kid, mind you at that time I was pretty impressionable. All these things just "disappeared" for news, it's the paranormal that people are intrigued in, well people like me anyway. I remember scaring Maggie and her sister with all that I knew about vampires and how I'd always thought it would be cool to be a vampire. And really what is so bad about living eternally? Granted you are living off the life of others, but as a vampire you can take only so much blood that you don't kill them. They only feel tired for a bit. Kinda funny cuz I just finished reading Tale of the Body Thief by Anne Rice and it seems that for vampires, what in relationships build up to sex or carnal pleasure is expressed in the exchange of blood. The reasoning behind this is that blood carries with it the very essence of the person as a being. Their dreams, memories, desires, everything is carried in their blood and when the blood is taken by a vampire the vampire then knows all about the other person, the two become one. Granted I know that this is completely fictionally, but just saying that it is cool.

On to another point of the day, people are dumb. Why you ask? Let me tell you a story about my morning.

I woke up and it was nice and sunny and I was thinking "YES! I can go rollerblading today." So I get all dressed and I make my way down to Eau Claire, I start going pretty fast, but then I slowed down to past some pedestrians, not a problem here. I was still going a pretty good speed, but apparently not fast enough. After I got past the walkers I hear a bell behind me and a voice that said "On your right." So I bladed to my left without even looking back. Immediately I heard someone say "Fucker" and the next thing I know I'm crashed onto the cement, no bruises or scrapes thankfully, but as I looked to where I just was was a person on a bike. Well they were until they hit me. Now when you say "On your right" when your biking, or blading, does that mean you are going to pass them on that side? I mean that's what I've always gone by. After talking to a couple guys here I was in the right and the other guy was wrong. Anyway, it was still a pisser of a way to start the day. Thankfully it's pretty dead at work and I can relax a bit.

After much fighting, there's my shoutbox on the left hand side, feel free to put in your 2 cents, just keep in mind that I can get rid of whatever I please ;) It's not the same as Lindz's, but it will have to do, all that matters is that it gets the job done. Anyway, since I've wasted my morning getting that and a PHP server set up on my machine I gotta go get ready for work right quick. Yay for me knowing what to do on my site, well kinda :). Oh yeah, smilies are enabled on the shoutbox as well.

Also, the server has been moved for this site, http://members.shaw.ca/sorean will no longer have up to date info, use www.sorean.tk instead. Actually I should just put a redirect over on that site. That will happen in a bit. If for any reason this site should go down, that means that my comp is turned off :P Yes I'm running this all hosted of my computer. Hopefully this little site shouldn't be affecting my bandwidth much.

So yesterday wasn't a complete waste, ended up playing Settlers: The board game at Savill's party, it wasn't that bad. After going shopping on my own I ended up spending only 100 bucks, which is pretty good for me, I got 5 shirts and one pair of pants, all acceptable for work, I rule :D

Well off to rush for work now. I'll probably be posting more as I get there. I realized that I really need to learn PHP, or get more done with ASP, should be fun :P

Edit: I hate transit, especially on weekends, and long weekends at that. I always have to work them, and they always do maintenance on them, it bugs me, it really does.

Something else cool too, my friend Heather bought a car too, it's the same make, model, and year as my car, only it's white instead. Kinda creepy. The cool thing is that the car's stock speakers kick ass, especially stock. Only one more month until I get insurance so I can get the car. Still need plates though.... hopefully that will be taken care of by Tuesday.

Edit 2: Oh yeah, there was one thing that bugged the crap outta me yesterday. So two of my friends were supposed to meet me and the 3 of us were supposed to go up and meet McKenna at the theater so we could catch the movie. Multiple times I told them not to be late, to be ready to go so we wouldn't miss the movie. So I waited at Marlborough and let 2 trains go by, got to the point where I decided that if they were not on the next C-Train I was going to get on it anyway cuz at least then I could still catch the movie with McKenna. It's a good thing I made that choice. There are two things I don't like when it comes to people, well three. One, don't lie about anything important. Two, don't be late, it really bugs me when people can't keep to a schedule. Finally, don't say you're going to do something and then not, it screws up a lot of things.

Another little change to the layout, all that is missing is a shoutbox now, which I hope that Lindz can hook me up with soon. Other than that, it's going to be a pretty boring day cuz I was supposed to get plates (places are closed), going shopping (Andrea slept in), so all that's left is a movie with my friend Ryan and a BBQ later on, hopefully my only day off in a span of ten won't be a total bust, later all.

PS, I have 13 gmail accounts to give way, e-mail me at [email protected] if you want one.

So begins another month, and I missed it, ah well. Yesterday was an interesting day of work. Up at 8 to do laundry so I could get to work with clean clothes. Had to go out with Kev to get a power supply for his computer because his died. Then I had to meet Sonia and Irene to help them with their VB class, which they are failing. There was supposed to be a meeting a work, but I opted for the one today, but I didn't go anyway because I had a Team Lead meeting. Oh well, I'm sure it wasn't important :P Man, yesterday I fell asleep on the C-Train, I was so dead, so very dead, and today was no better.

Last night I was talking to Maggie on the phone and left the phone in my room after I went to bed. This morning at 9:30 some charity decided to call to wake me up asking for a donation. I was irked by that. Who do they think they are? Anyway, soon I as I got rid of them I tried to go back to sleep, no such luck. Car alarm goes off outside. This is making for a tough week. Only good thing is that I got a new web cam which I will be displaying later today, the thing has a 1.3 MegaPixel capture potential. That's as high as some low end digital cameras. I really gotta stop buying toys :P

Speaking of spending money, Saturday is going to be a shopping day, more for nice clothes though because we have to dress professional. I only have 2 dress shirts that fit well and one that is super hot when I wear it. So I kinda need to find new dress shirts. I already went and spent money on dress pants, I have 2 pairs right now and need a couple more. So far, pants is covered because I have some that are pretty fashionable despite that I wear them a lot, I just need shirts. The good thing about this new "dress code" is that I can wear my cutoffs under the dress shirt and not get in trouble for it. I like wearing cutoffs, they're great :D.

Since my last update I have been told of a page by a friend of mine. The site is pretty much a database of funny stuff said by people on IRC. The page is www.bash.org the site is hilarious and filled with off the wall comments. Here is one joke:

Just make sure that you go through the top 200 at least. I went through them and am now on page 10. Great reading for when you have nothing to do.

Oh yeah, I have a Gmail account now. Every geeky person knows what it is, but for those that don't, a Gmail account is a Google e-mail account. So now, if you want to reach me you can try [email protected]. I'm just happy I got [email protected], I've used the name since I was 15 and I still do, 6 years. It's almost like my alter-ego. Actually anyone that really knows me, knows this. Those that don't, you're more than welcome to message me and ask what I really mean by that. My MSN is located in the contact tab.

In other news today, Nintendo made a drastic move and slashed the prices of the Gameboy SP. They now retail for $99.95, down $40.00 from their current prices. Nothing was cited for the movie, but I believe it is because they are coming out with a new system and are trying to maintain their grasp on the hand-held gaming market with the Nintendo DP and Sony's PSP coming out. When called for comment, I could only reach someone who kept repeating "It'sa me..." and then cut out. I'm not sure if it was Mario or Jar Jar.

Alrighty, I really didn't have anything to post about except sore muscles and such, but I do now. There is something about the elderly that I dislike. Now you may wonder what brought this about, here it is:

This morning I was rollerblading with Andrea, all fine and dandy, then came the time to go home and get ready for work. Now it was just a short blade from Andrea's to my place, but along the way something happened that caused me to have me laugh for the day. The sidewalk that I was blading on was by no means a wide path, but it is easily manageable for two people to pass each other without contact or disturbance. As I was weaving my way between the noon hour crowd I placed myself on a straight path on the side closest to the street as to ensure that I did not bother any of the other pedestrians. About three seconds after I placed myself upon this path an elderly lady dressed in red gave me a less than desirable look and said "Come On!" in the most disrespectful tone possible. After a quick moment to gather my composure I replied, "Where are we going? Your place?" The look of shock and distain on her face made it all worth it. I really do not understand what brought about such a hostile reaction from such a lovely elderly lady, but it was simply downright rude. I did nothing offensive to her, nor did I interfere with her travels, yet she decides to try to berate me and as an outcome she herself is left in a worst state of shock than if she had simply kept quiet.

To all the elderly that read this page, which I think is 0, but I must make my point here. You all thinking that the youth are the problem in today's society, you believe that all of us are evil and have no respect for you. I highly disagree and many of us do have respect. With age comes wisdom, patience, and tolerance. Unfortunately, not all of you have seemed to obtain these "gems" which make you shine for your age. We the young do respect you, but when you pass judgments on nothing, or in a situation such as mine, make a comment for no reason at all, you cannot expect that the reactions will be friendly in nature. Call me jaded, but this world is a world of balance, clichéd as this next line may be it still holds true. "What goes around comes around", and with what a friend added once, "When it comes around it gathers speed". I simply cannot stand intolerance in others... well there's an oxymoronic sentence, but it's true. Intolerance is what causes problems in this world. If everyone learned the patience that is taught with time the world would be a much less hostile place.

Well it has been a most interesting past couple of days, I thought my 3 1/2 days off would be non-eventful I was so wrong. Let's start with Thursday.

We had to let go of some people at work, kind of a scary thing, but I still went and I bought a car, the one I have a link to, that's the one I bought. Sadly, the link no longer works because the car has already been bought. It was 1495.00 before taxes and warranty. I got 1 year power train warranty and the car for 1700. Got to love the buying power of cash. That night was uneventful, Joey got into town, I talked to Maggie for a long time trying to sort things out. And that was Thursday.

Friday, went to go see Without A Paddle, fixed my laptop (150 dollar replacement Hard Drive, but it's all working again), found that if I were to insure my car now, it would cost me 4900.... well that makes sense /end sarcasm. New insurance laws are coming out in October so the car is sitting downstairs in the parking lot for the next month. Apparently I'm to save around 2000 bucks so yeah, another month on transit isn't gong to kill me.

Saturday...... the most interesting of my days. Had brunch with Agnes, Lindz, and Joey at Cheesecake Café then Joey and I headed to Eau Claire to throw a Frisbee around for a while and were supposed to go blading but didn't. Did you know you could work up a bit of a sweat just throwing a Frisbee around? I didn't. Last night was Jeremy's party, it was fun, I got drunk too fast too soon, but despite that it was alright for the first couple of hours. The rest of the night on the other hand........ let's just say I have a new perspective on life now.

There are a couple of things that I learned this past weekend from all my trials and tribulations:

Tonight is going to be fun. I get off work at 10:30 and then I have to get back to work by 7AM. The plus side is that I'm off at 3:30, after that Lindz and I are going to look at my new potential car. The only problem is that I need insurance and that is going to prove to be a bit of a difficulty. I called TD Insurance today and they said I can't have any claims for 5 years before they would insure me, damn bastards is what they are. So Friday is going to be spent calling around asking about insurance. The good thing is that starting October, they can't do anything about that based upon your history. Hopefully, I can find someone that will insure me for the next month if I do manage to get that car.

Well I got my schedule for the next couple of weeks. I get a 3 day weekend :D I have Friday, Saturday, Sunday off. Then I'm back Monday from 3:30 until midnight and I do this until Friday. I get Saturday off, and then I work 2:00 until 10:30PM Sunday to Wednesday, Thursday off, and then I come on Midnight Friday night. Looks like fun times ahead.... *sigh* I hope we get that raise we were all talking about soon.

Well that's pretty much it. Gaming wise, still playing CS, and since I bought a legit copy of Warcraft 3 now, I'm still working on the missions again. Mind you the custom maps are pretty fun too. well back to work now, everyone take care.

Well last night at work was kinda crappy. I was so tired I fell asleep 5 times, but only moments at a time. I went home and didn't even have the energy to watch a movie or play a game, went right to bed, this was around 11-11:30, midnight at the latest and I woke up when my alarm went off. My alarm is set to 11:30AM, not even the stupid garbage truck across the street woke me up at 9AM, I was just that dead. I woke up, showered, ate lunch, which I had to buy, and then quickly get my ass off to work. So here I am, 3 hours into my shift. I did find this cool site though, it takes your name, or your alias, no matter what you decided, but it only takes letters, no numbers and it returns it as an cyborg name.

Well there are my three, I like Sorean, John is not that exciting, and Braxis, the other alias I sometimes go by when Sorean doesn't work is pretty cool too. Man, I'd make such a cool cyborg. Only reason I like Sorean is that it pretty much translates into an efficient search and destroy machine, which I am in Counter-Strike. It's great, I actually have a rep on the server that I play on now. I've played there since December so I have a pretty good standing and I know some of the admins, one of them knows me well enough that I consider him a good guy.

Car = < September 30th. Least that's what I'm aiming for. I got two friends back home looking plus I'm looking now too. Anything about 2500 or less is what I'm aiming for. Either way, I'm going to be dipping into my line of credit contrary to what I said yesterday, I'd like to be able to not owe anything, but living off credit for a month should be okay. I mean I should be able to pay it off very soon. If I get the car back in Sask, I'll put it for a month there while I'm looking for insurance here, the reason for that is that Sask cars are a lot cheaper. Anyway, back to work now.

So much for going to be early and sleeping :P Ended up talking to Maggie until 2AM and then was only able to sleep until 6AM, it was horrible, like 3 hours of sleep and I'm absolutely dead. I feel sick now too, it's going to be a great day. Oh, I forgot to mention that I was 30 minutes late for work because I wasn't thinking straight cuz I was so tired.

I played CS: Source last night.... it is so visually amazing, game play is still the same, but so many cool things. Flash bangs actually work like Flash bangs should, makes the screen white, all you hear is a high pitch ringing, and when you recover, the screen is still shaking with the last image you saw. The game is so awesome, can't wait until HL2 comes out.

Thank god for games, movies, books, and friends. If not for those, I'd be bored outta my mind, I have my friends and my work in this city, but no real goal yet, I think the closest thing is my weight loss plan as the next attainable plateau. After that, it's time to look for something else to achieve.

Well time to start looking for a car, I think I just might dip into my line of credit for this thing, 1500-2000 is what I'm looking to spend for a decent car. Hope I get one soon, cuz it's starting to rain a lot and it's only going to get worse.

Well I lost at poker, down 40 bucks, but that's cool though, it was a good night of trash talking by all. I bought a legit version of Warcraft III and Frozen Throne too. It's been a lazy Saturday and I've enjoyed it. Playing WC3 and now I'm watching "Batman - Mystery of Batwoman" It's kinda cool, a nice relaxing night, but after this I believe I'm going to watch Transformers Movie and then go to bed, so everyone take care. I'll be posting more from work tomorrow. Everyone take care.

After a couple of days of struggling to modify this page, here it is. It was originally supposed to be for OME, the company that my friends and I were going to start, but no contacts, plus our lives got busy. Oh well, least the page is being put to good use. Full design credit goes to Lindz. He doesn't have a blog up yet, but he says he will soon. Right now is the last of my grave shifts which gave me the time to do this. Actually, if I remember correctly, this design was supposed to be used for the company that Lindz is working for, but they rejected it, I like it on the other hand.

I found that I really like rollerblading, especially to exercise. I came home from my shifts, bladed for an hour, showered, slept like a baby. I think that's the key to good sleeping, exercising before bed, it leaves your body in a state of exhaustion which literally puts you to bed right away. Now be it a game of ball, running, or another other "activity" that causes you to sweat is a good way of burning off energy before you sleep.

Tonight is going to be another poker night, it'll be fun. Last time I won one, should be fun none the less.

Night 2 of graveyard shifts. Last night's shift flew by, it was easy cuz I had people to talk to until about 2 AM and then I had my book to read. I finished The Da Vinci Code yesterday, I suggest it to anyone who is in search of a new novel to read. It was a really good suspense book. It only took me 3 days to finish, that's not counting the fact that I wasn't reading it straight through and was taking breaks. Now I'm onto The Tale of the Body Thief by Anne Rice. It is the 4th book in the Vampire Chronicles series and there are six now I believe. It's going to be a long process, but I have a lot to get through. I have like four books that I have to get through. I have to get through all of Anne's books and then after that I have to get through all of Orson Scott Card's books as well.

Tonight is pretty good, the Network Operations Centre guy has a portable DVD player and movies. Starting tomorrow I'm going to bring the four seasons of the Soprano's and we are going to watch that.

I hope that I have enough energy to go blading tomorrow morning. Actually, I'm going to make it a point to rollerblade tomorrow morning. I spent 200 bucks on them and I'm going to get the most I can out of them. I'd be nice if I had people who would do that with me. I'm glad I have my roommate, he drives me to keep in shape, give me a year and I'll be a different man. I guarantee you all that.

Well this was an expensive weekend. Went out to the bar last night with 3 bills and left with 1, then today spent another 2 bills on rollerblades and shit to go with it. I really should be more careful with my money. Ah well, a good time was had by all. It was me, Lindz, Andrea, Robin, Colin, and Mitch. Unfortunately, shortly after we were there a girl that Robin has a death grudge with shows up and she wanted to leave. Since I was the only tie there I had to go with her, I wasn't about to send her home alone, that's just not nice. So she and I ended up walking to Outlaws from Spin. After two hours there I went back to Spin and she went home cuz she had to work. I was up to about 4AM again, but I just crashed. Seems like I can reach 4AM and then it's just a straight drop into sleep. This really has to be fixed as tomorrow I start my grave shift. This should be fun :P. Other than that my weekend has been uneventful. Spent time with friends trying to stay up.

I really do like having a friend like Andrea, she tried to help me stay up that first night, we made it until 4AM, and we talked on the phone last night til about the same time too. She's an awesome friend and I just wanted everyone to know that. And I can't forget a Mr. Tim Sanchez, he's a great guy too. He's been giving me games and shit to check out. By the way, watch this, it's kinda cool. Well I'm out for now as Andrea is on her way over and we're going out for dinner. Later everyone and take care.

I hate my building when they do maintenance on it. Today they had the hot water shut off to work on it, they do it once a month pretty much and today is the only day that I didn't get up earlier than usual to get a shower in. So I had to freeze my ass off, quickest shower I have ever taken. So I'm going to head home tonight, after my 11 hour day (2 hour meeting and a normal 9 hour shift) and take a nice hot, long shower.

I finally beat Half-Life, kind of a boring story, more of a kill everything to survive thing. Really weak ending. Now what to play? I think I'll be working on nothing actually, none of the games that I am playing interest me, playing poker on the other hand is fun. Next Saturday I'm holding another poker night, even though I work at 7AM the next day. Ah well, it'll be fun with the other Team Leads

Well I actually have to do work, so I'm outta here for now, catch you all later.

I made a realization today. This job is not unlike my old one, I seem to be able to climb ranks very well. I was a SRC FA for a while, but then when the spot opened up, I was able to become the SRC admin, now at Unnamed Company I've done the same, started as an agent and in 7 months, I'm now a team lead and managing the people I work with. I like knowing that I can advance no matter the job set ahead of me.

Doom 3 news, I play it for the first time today, man, I now know why they tell you not to play the game in the dark all by yourself, you ever watch Resident Evil? It's kinda like that, only you're in the game and it's from a first person perspective, it's scary. The graphics are done so well though, it is so cool. Only problems is trying to see, the game is so freaking dark. Now all I have to do is finish Half-life first, only abut an hour or so left I believe, oh yeah, I forgot I started Prince of Persia :P about 25% through that, I only know that because the game tells me so.

Senseless deaths really do annoy me, actually today was really bad, one page of the newspaper disgusted me for the entire day. Brutal Beatings over nothing are completely senseless and this article really bugs the crap out of me, it wasn't posted anywhere, so I'll just type it out:

Errant shot kills infant in her crib (Montreal)

Now I don't understand why people are dumb like that. The first one is really a senseless killing, no reason at all. The baby didn't even have a chance at life, that really really bugs me.

In other news, I got my contract for full time now. Making some money, hopefully it will be enough to keep me afloat for a while. I get benefits now that include health and dental, but sadly no eyewear, 2 weeks of vacation time too. Nice little package for now I guess.

Well according to Kev, I go back on the diet three weeks from now, the only difference is that I get to have some fish once a week too. This time we are going to do it right, full cardio workouts during the time all the time. I did the workout 1/2 the time last time, but still managed pretty decent results. Time to really work my ass off and try to lose this guy once and for all. Once I do lose it, I'm going to do my very damned best to keep it off.

Anyway, time to get some actual work done now, talk to you all later, message me or e-mail me any time, always online some place or another.

Well today was the end of my diet, final result, Sorean = Sorean - 10 pounds. Damn it actually worked pretty good. And I wasn't even doing it right, I only went to the gym 1/2 the time because I actually forced myself to. If I had gone all the time and worked on the diet the way I was supposed to I probably could have lost the 20 pounds like it should have. Either way, I'm at 215 now and I plan on keeping my healthy diet of no crap.

Went to the flee market today and picked up the sweetest speakers for 40 bucks for my comp, Altec Lansing's 2.1 Speaker system. Brand new too, right out of the box and this "company" works on e-bay too and they got some really cheap stuff, their name is E-com Liquidators and are based out of Calgary, I think I'm going to head down to the flee marker every weekend to check out the new stuff they might have, like a laptop for 300, a Pentium 4 too.

Anyway, I'm out for now, going to watch a movie or two. By the way, the first 2 seasons of Family Guy can be picked up at Future shop for 22 bucks, a nice deal I think, especially since they were asking 45 for them before. Anyway I'm out, everyone take care.

Well here is the new layout, for lack of trying and the fact that I like simplicity there is nothing really special about this. I like the simple layout plus I like comic sans as a font :D Any of you that talk to me on MSN know that. Anyway, if any of you can think of ways to make this better or would like to contribute please e-mail me, yes I know I'm just being lazy but meh :P

Almost done with my diet and I know I can make this stick, especially since my body seems to reject junk food. Time to make things that are healthier, like cooking my own lunch to take to work, having healthier snacks, eating more veggies (which I hate, but after 2 weeks on this, I can probably eat anything), and working out regularly. The cool thing is that I have friends like Laura who told me that if we were living together that there would be no junk in the place, glad I have friends that are supportive. Doing this alone is not very easy, but I've resolved to change my lifestyle and stick with it, hell, I'm 21 and I can do it.

Past couple of days have been boring, going to try to pick up a car soon, but tomorrow, I am going to try to track down a copy of Doom3, I must own that game, just cuz it's been hyped so much that I have to see what it is all about, that plus the mods, kinda like the same feeling I have about Half-Life 2, mind you I have to finish Half-Life1 first. Life is boring, luckily there are games, but I'd much rather have my friends here. Too bad everyone is gone this weekend, I think I'll just hit the weights hard this weekend, see what kinda damage I can do to myself.

The Team Lead job is great, I can work on a lot of things, actually the new layout for the site is almost complete.... I think unless I decide to scrap the entire thing :P Gotta do a banner and stuff, but yeah, did I mention I suck at Photoshop? Time to mess around with that now. Later all and take care.

I must have the worst fucking luck in the world right now. Guess what happened last night? C'mon, guess.

Give up? My new computer, barely a week old, had its power supply die on me. So what did I have to do this morning? Get up early and go get it replaced. Thankfully they were nice about it and replaced it for me with no questions asked. The good thing about my stop is that the place I deal with may make me a supplier so that means I can get computer parts cheap, which I really really like the sound of, and this way I can help my friends out as well. Ah well, diet is still at a stand still. I am seriously thinking that my food intake is affecting my energy levels. I'm still so tired I just got into work and I want to go to bed already. Ah well, time to work on a new layout I think, too bad I don't have Photoshop.

Seems like the diet has come to a stand still, I haven't really been working out, but my weight has stayed at a steady 218-221, so I think it's time I put some extra effort into this diet/workout routine.

I've also come to the conclusion that the less food you consume combined with the less you weight, the more you can sleep. The reasoning behind this comes from my experience with friends as well as my current battle with this diet. Now prior to my lack of food, I could sleep for maybe 6 hours and be fine to face the day, I'm also a bigger guy. After starting it though I've found that I need to sleep a lot more because I feel more tired. I believe that this all has to do with the amount of energy brought into the body. The less food I eat, the less my body takes and turns into useable energy, the less I sleep, the less it can use to build up energy stores in the body. Theoretically, if I eat less and sleep less, I should lose more weight, but that's probably a messed up way of thinking. Either way, a healthier lifestyle is just what I need to get rid of this gut of mine. *sigh* 5 years later and I still have this stupid keg instead of a six-pack. Hell, I don't even want a six-pack.

Another perk of this job of mine is that it allows me to do this, I can update from work. Oh yeah, I almost forgot, Kevin (my roommate) says a guy needs to sell his car soon because he's going to Europe for about 1500, it's only 9 years old so I think it shouldn't be too bad, but I have to take a look at insurance too. 1500 is about one paycheque so it will just set me back another month, but insurance is what worries me. I mean right now, for food, rent, bus, bills it adds up to about 900 a month, that's pretty close I think that roughly leaves about 2100 a month, take away 800 in taxes and I get left with about 1300. Student loans come up and I think I'll set that to 400 a month which leaves 900, insurance will hopefully run about 300 which means I can save about 300 a month and spend 300 a month. *sigh* the problems with growing up.

Speaking of maturity, I read an article in the Calgary Herald yesterday that cited people seem to be maturing at an older age, and by maturing they judged it by three/four criteria, first was independence from family, second was financial independence, third was post secondary education, and the forth was marriage. Apparently the average age for all that to occur is 30. The article went on to state that they believe that increase in living expenses as well as the rising cost of school is what is causing this longer maturity period. Which I can understand, but I've got 3 of the 4 under my belt and I'm only 21, I guess I'm a bit ahead of the world's view in maturity :P

One day of cheating is so counter-productive. I'm back up to 220, which means I've only lost 5 pounds for the week. So yeah..... then again, my body hasn't processed the food that I've had today and made waste of that, gross as that sounds, it's true, there's some weight there too. Anyway, today we went to Callaway park, did a lot of walking around, went on the roller coaster and the log ride, good thing it was a pretty nice day out because the log ride got everyone wet. Sad thing I didn't stray much from my diet. I had a Subway sub where the extra toppings were mayo, honey-mustard sauce, and a little bit of salt and pepper. I also had chicken fingers and fries at the park, which probably attributed to my weight gain. Oddly, when I was eating the fingers and fries my body didn't seem to like what I had put into it. The sub my body was fine with, it must be the diet training my body to eat healthy, and I really don't mind it, except for the fact that eating healthy costs money. Ah well, I can live with that part.

So I start my new job tomorrow as team lead. I get trained again, not bad for seven months of work I think. Jumping from Junior to Intermediate to Team Lead and not having the "Senior Agent" status is kind of exciting. I honestly just want to see the company do well and that's why I want to take the team lead job. I can guide these new and existing agents to become effective "machines", as John called me once. I just want our call centre to be the best that it can be and to propel the company further. Hopefully, I'll be going with it and playing more and more important roles within the workings of the company. Anyway I'm getting really tired, off for now, g'nite all.

Well I think I've maxed out on the weight loss for now, still only about 7-9 pounds of loss, but tomorrow is going to be weird because I'm going to Callaway park, and I won't have my regular meals which kind of sucks. Oh well, one day of cheating isn't going to wreck a week of progress. I'm thinking all I really have to do now is just cook healthier food in order to maintain this. This diet really, really sucks and I'm starting to lose my sense of taste. It's been a week, I think going for a week at a time on this might actually work. I mean 6 days and I've lost a bit of weight, but it's not as much as I'd like. The downside is that I feel a lot more tired than I usually am. That's it, I'm going to eat what I want to, just most of it is going to be healthier. Like chicken breasts, but what else is healthy for you though as far as meat goes? I'm done with this diet, but there are going to be changes, no eating before bed, all healthy food, etc. It's going to be conscious decisions I make about what I eat now. This stuff can't be good for me, I'm working out, I'm a growing man, I need this food, stupid diet, what the fuck was I thinking? I should be happy with the way I am, and this diet is going to be the start of it. I will stick to it generally, but if I'm really hungry, I'm going to snack.

I'm a team lead now, I got told that today and I start the position Sunday!! What does this mean for your's truly? It means that I will have health care and other benefits, and hopefully a pay raise as well. I find out Monday when I go in to sign the contract. Sadly, it's shift work and I'm starting the 3:30 to midnight shift. Good thing is that the C-Train is still running, bad thing is that my bus isn't, so I guess I'll be walking home, in the summer that won't be so bad, but in the winter.... don't even want to think about that. I hope to have my car by then, but I highly doubt I can afford it on top of loan payments. Anyway, cars are going to be on the top of my list for a little while.

Far as the diet goes, subtract 9 pounds from my weight, this is so getting results.

I got sent home 3 hours early today at 7, so here I am at home again. It was a dead night anyway and I didn't really need the money. Actually, yeah I do, stupid laptop breaking. Ah well, next paycheque will only catch me up I think, if I'm lucky I'll break even cuz rent is due. Anyway, friends are over, I'll update later.

3 days later, I'm 5 pounds lighter, so far so good, I think, but I'm starting to get hungry, ah well, toughing it out.

Other than that nothing is really new. Having fun playing with my new computer, going to work, relaxing, that's about it. It seems that life has gotten a little easier for some reason. I have more time to just unwind, but it seems like all the time I have off is still taken up. I think I'm going to need a weekend to myself here pretty soon.

Well it's 11 at night and I'm getting tired, I think I'm gonna go play some Prince of Persia before bed, that game is so cool. Catch you all later.

So starts day 1 of my new diet..... nothing but brown rice and chicken breasts. One cup of brown rice, one palm sized piece of chicken breast 3 times a day... so far it's not bad, but I will be updating every day from now on to let you guys know how it goes. This diet, combined with my workout, should allow me to drop at least 10 pounds in 2 weeks, Kev's friend says he's lost 20 in the time frame. Time to see how it goes.

The weekend was pretty fun, dropped 1200 bucks and now I have a new kick ass PC thanks to the help of one of my best friends Lindz. I have an ATI Radeon 9800, AMD Barton 2500XP+, 80 GB HD, 512 RAM, and that's all that really matters. It still sucks that I have no speakers though.... Sadly, it set me back 2 weeks.

This is absolutely great, the perfect way to start my weekend................../end sarcasm.

This has been a great week. First Maggie decides to call a break on Monday, I was pretty sad about that, I was going to come on here and write a lot about that, but now something even better has throw me for an emotional uprising. But I should give Maggie my due, I love you Maggie, no matter what. She wanted to take a break, so I can figure out what is going on with my life and if I want this relationship to work. I do love her, but I can't be there for her as much as I want to, or can be for that matter. We both have lives of our own and trying to make them work together is the hard part.

My laptop is dead, it's a shell without a brain. Well technically it has a brain, just nothing to use it with. My BIOS has determined that it will no longer recognize my hard drive, now this could be something as simple as a fried connector, or something as bad as a seized hard drive. So now, I am machine less, except access to my roommates machine which will be pretty infrequent. Thankfully, I have some money kicking around so I'm getting Lindz to throw together a good decent machine that I can use at home for about a grand. Fuck I was going to save that money, but I can't live without a machine, life just isn't fair.... Oh yeah, the warrantee expired on the 17th... the day I made my last post.

So now I have to call my bro and tell him I can't get him a machine for his grad present and it's going to be delayed another couple months cuz of this. Fuck I'm pissed off.

*sigh* I don't even know what to do, all my games, all my work, my movies, my music, it was all on there....

Wow was I ever drunk last night, but it was fun. Started at 3 and didn't really stop until 2. I blame Renny for my intoxicated state :P Almost seems like I get drunk around him all the time, kinda like when I used to hang out with Andrea at the beginning of school. Anyway, the last week has been pretty productive. I was able to see Finger 11, the show was packed so full you had trouble getting to the exits, of course there was plenty of pot to be found, but yours truly did not partake. Still though, there were little kids that were moshing and those kids were getting hurt, kinda sad in states like that.

Thursday was great, at work there was someone on the phone that accused me of belittling him by calling him "Sir", go figure that one out. I don't really understand some people; turns out he was a bank manager too :P Life has been pretty blah lately, but next week I'll be having a poker night with some guys from work, hopefully we can all have a nice non competitive night even though it is for money. Anyone that likes to play Texas hold 'em should hit me up and see if we have spots left, trying for a small gathering.

Just exactly what are the reasons that we are put here? I don't know what it is, but it just seems like life doesn't have much of a direction anymore. When you're young, between September and June you were stuck in school, especially between the ages of 5 and 18. That covers everything between elementary and high school. Then, if you want, you have structure between the age of 18, and depending on how good you are, maybe until you are 22. But then what? I'm done school now, I'm 21, and I still have the world ahead of me. Sadly, it seems that the only productive thing I do is go to work where I actually help people. I want to move up in the company or maybe become a programmer. I also thought about getting a Masters in Business Administration, the reason is because I want to become a manager or something like that. Something where I am in charge of a team, or a group. I'm just not sure where to find something like that. I believe that I am fully well qualified to do something like that. I have never missed a deadline, I know how to manage projects, but yet I do not have the piece of paper that says I know how to do it right. Why is it that this society is based upon paper? Without a piece of paper we do not legally exist, without a piece of paper we are not qualified to do any job, without pieces of paper we cannot own or obtain any possessions. I may be thinking that the ideal world is a utopia, but sadly, it does not work like that. We cannot all have the same level of benefit. I know this sounds like communist talk, but if everyone put out the same amount of work, we can all obtain a universal state of peace. I wish the world would be simpler.

So it's 11:30, and I'm sitting in front of my computer typing this out, with a Bacardi Breezer beside me and thinking about what the point of life is. Granted having a drink beside me is not exactly how I thought I would be spending tonight, but there is nothing really to do. Don't despair, this is not going to be a regular occurrence. I'm just tired and besides they taste good :) Either way, I don't really have any direction now. I just have no idea what to do. Ed was so proud of me when I graduated and I am surprised how much I can mean to someone, granted he is my best friend :D He said that he was happy that I was done school and he didn't really know what to do now. Yeah, I am done school, and I'm sitting in the same situation. I don't really know what to do. I want to lose all the weight, but it's so boring, working out on your own is no fun. In the last semester I gained 20 pounds, in three months, I gained that much. In the last 3 weeks I've lost 5 pounds, so I guess I'm on pace to lose it all off by the end of the summer. But the thing is that it's boring.

Like I said, the only good thing I feel good about is going to work and socializing there. I can't find anything to do with volleyball right now, but it's hard to do anything because I don't have a car. I miss that game so much it hurts. I did try, I found a beach season that starts next week but it's in places I can't get to easily without a car.

Stampede was kinda cool, went last night with Sonia, her friends Ange and AJ, and Jason Y. It was alright, Carnival food is great :D. Saw the Ataris playing last night, there were kinda good, but I'm still psyched about Finger 11 playing there Monday. I had to do a lot of juggling to get that day off so I could go see them. Monday's are statistically the busiest day at Unnamed Company, but I was able to get my shift off by having someone come in early to take my shift, only problem was to find someone to cover that other person's shift. Which I was able to do. So now, I get to go see Finger 11 again!! Yay!!

So I have realized that even without school, I'm not doing much with my life. I wake up, work out, make lunch, go to work, come home, talk to Maggie, play some games and go to bed. I have to find something to do. Working out has become boring to do on my own, waiting for Lindz to come back so we can start going to the Gym together and actually have some motivation to do something.

Movies are a good thing to use to kill time, so are games, now I actually have time to do both and catch up on stuff I missed while going to school. *Yawn* I'm tried and I need sleep. Last night we were out until 3 AM, I didn't get to bed until 5, and I woke up at 1 today. Still tried, but I think I'll be going to bed earlier than planned today. Ah well, time to test out Age of Mythology. Later all.

Alrighty then, so I've now been back in Calgary and not really doing much, just been working and relaxing. Sadly, this relaxing thing is getting boring, I need a project or something to work on. I've been trying to come up with a new logo, but it just doesn't look good, one looks too girly and the other is just not done well. Well it's raining outside and I have to take transit to work, ewwww. Anyway I'll update more later.

So I'm on the flight home right now, I'll be uploading this soon as I get home. The jackass behind me doesn't know how to stop playing with the food tray. It's not some kid either, it's an East-Indian gentleman around the age of 35-45. I was sleeping until he did that continuously. So here I am updating again.

My bro's grad was great, I must say that I am very proud of him. This guy is really starting to get on my nerves. Anyway, It was good to see and his friends finish. It was kinda cool cuz one of them came to me for advice. Kinda neat how they sorta look up to me. It was a good cerimony and a fun banquet/dance. It was a mini Feehan reunion. I saw people like the Reagan Twins, Kevin Harder, Donna Skakuan, Jantsen Ferraro, Lesia Horbay, and numerous others. It was good catching up with everyone. Seems like a lot of people I know got married or are engaged, or have been together for a long time are still together. Kinda surprised me with some, but others it was foreseeable.

Saw a lot of teachers there as well from the "good old days". Jason Sand, my old volleyball coach, Mr. Pizurney was there as well, he was my guitar teacher, an awesome man and one I respect a lot. All of them seemed to be surprised to see me, might be because I've been gone for three years.

Seeing old friends are great, sadly I did not have time to see all the people I wanted, those those that know of this page, I'm sorry, these people include Adam Prefontaine, Caroline Nguyen, April Kasdorf, and Kyle Douglas. One friend, Matthew Hazelwanter, a guy I knew from high school is still in town. He is probably my longest standing friend, despite all the distances, years spent apart, it seems like we never stopped being friends.

Jason, I thanked you in town and I'm thanking you again for letting me stay. It's always great spending time with you, I hope you know that I will always regard you like a brother. Hey, it's been 10 minutes.... shit spoke too soon, thought the guy had stopped and decided to it still, so much for that. Only another 1/2 an hour....Just turned around and this guy looks like he lacks social skills too. Geez, just wanted a quiet flight home, one that I could nap on. Not like I'm going to get much sleep tonight anyway. Gotta call Maggie when I get back and then Andrea wants to go out and I told her that I'd take her out. Hopefully we can be out by 11 or so and then I can be in bed by 2 or 3 because I have to work tomorrow.

Speaking of work, I got a raise last month!! I'm being paid 15.50 an hour now. Seems like they are going to keep me on board for a while. Also, a firend of mine in the other department is going to try to get me a job in there to become an installer. Hopefully I can get that position as it pays more and I can see more of this world, be it just to and from job sites, but still, it's travel experience. Soooo tired, wish that guy would stop hitting my chair so I can get to sleep, I know if it where the plane because it would be at the bottom, or the seat of the chair, but no, this is square in the back. which

The car was a really nice ride, for 3 days, it cost a total of $149.85 which works out to be 49.95 a day. Very affordable I think, oh wait, there was a tank of gas too, so add on another 27 bucks, still not bad.

One of the things to do on my list is to come up with a new layout for this page. This white on black isn't looking so good anymore. It doesn't reflect the fact that I'm a little older, I'm more mature now, but I don't have to act it though :D "Getting older is mandatory, maturing is not." I think it's time for a shift. I really have to find my place in this world now, I have friends, which I am grateful for, some pieces of paper that say I'm smart, other ones that say I can work hard. I think right now my place is in Calgary with Unnamed Company and my friends there, I just can't see myself anywhere else at the moment. Not many are going to be pleased with the fact that I'm thinking that, but I'm sorry guys, it's just the way it has to be right now. The job pays to well and I enjoy the work. My friends in the city are great, be they few, but they are good one. I don't have many people I consider good friends, but I do have them and I cherish them as best I can.

I'm in Saskatoon at the moment. I know it has been 3 weeks since my last update and I'm sorry. I know I've said it before, but I really didn't have much time. After the concert, we had to prep for finals, and Maggie was here two days later. I had a great time with her, sadly I forgot her birthday present, but I have a great idea lined up, just hope that the shipping doesn't wreck it.

I have officially graduated. I am a graduate of the DeVry University of Phoenix, Arizona. Bachelor's of Science with honours. I did pass my Oracle course, got a B in it though. I got an A in all three of my other courses. So in total, I think I have 7 Bs and the rest are As, I'll post the official results when I have them.

In other news, I realize how much I miss driving. I rented a car today, an Accent, and the car has some good features. It is also supposed to be very cheap. The car has the most leg room for any car that I have ever been in. The target date to finance this car is going to be March. Going to have to set a realistic goal.

Right now I am at my friend's Jason's place and watching Pitch Black, and then going to see Chronicles of Riddick tomorrow. So I am going to go now, and I will chat with all of you later. PS it was great to see all my friends again.

Damn POD was awesome!! Mosh pits are so much fun, well minus the fact that I wasn't wearing steel toe boots, but my feet are fine. Sorry once again for disappearing again. I had senior project to finish and a bunch of other papers to write. The senior project fair went off without a hitch, had a couple of crashes the day of the project fair, but fixed them before we actually had to present. Sadly, we didn't win, but that is okay. The crappy thing is that our client requested changes be made to it two days before the fair. No idea how long it is going to take me to add these changes in. To all programmers out there, AVOID CRYSTAL REPORTS LIKE THE PLAGUE. That program is so hard to make compatible, given the chance I would not be using it. If you need to need to make a report and the report has multiple entries for multiple tables, it will not work. So now, I have to recode a large section of the program. Go me for being the head programmer! :P

In other news, Maggie comes on Thursday!! :D Been so long since I've seen here, going to have so much fun this summer!! Jason and Ed are coming up for my grad, so is my Mom, and I can't forget Shannon and Gen either. It's going to be a great grad.

Back to the topic of school, all I have left is to code the rest of senior project, give 2 presentations, one 40 minute group one, one 5-7 minute solo one, and take an Oracle DBA final. Not much left to do.

I've sadly found out that Ed is hooked on Neopets.... poor soul, the more sad part is that I've had one longer than him :P Ah well, he gets free shit from me anyway, so does Tamara. I'm sad that Tamara can't make it. She's a great friend and it's awesome that I can get along so well with y best friend's girl.

Anyway, too tired to type anymore, got too much to do tomorrow. Got to go out and do shopping, finish the coding, and buy a new bed. Everyone take care.

Well I guess I've fallen behind again, lets just put it this way, from last week until now, this is my first day off.

I noticed that I forgot something with my last post. We had a presentation to the Calgary Chamber of Commerce and a lot of them were legitly interested in our project, Office Media Enterprises may become real.

I so want to see Shrek 2, but I have to wait until Maggie gets here. Only 13 more days, sadly she gests here in the morning and then I have class and then I just found out I have a mandatory meeting on the same day from 1 to 5, how shitty is that? I am looking forward to the time off though. I should be doing two things right now, commenting our senior project, which I found out has a fatal programmers flaw in it, but it is acceptable. It is just some stupid programmer foresight on my behalf. Next time I have to do this, I know exactly how to do it. I could fix it, but there is too little time between now and then to do such a thing as it requires a complete revamp of the program. Secondly, I should be trying to get my movie comparison done so I can get a 10% bonus on an assignment worth 25% of my final mark. I have until Thursday to get it done, too bad Final Project fair is the day after it is due.

My buddy Frank sent me a lead today and I'm liking what I see, I will take a look into it and do what I can do. Anyway, time to start commenting again. Everyone take care, looking forward to seeing you guys back home soon.

Wow, I'm soooo sorry everyone for not updating, but I've have been so busy it's not even funny. A couple more days and I should be back to regular updating of this page.

As you may have noticed, I have not had found time to create a new layout for this page. Also I have not had time to do much at all. We had 2 huge things due this week and we are now done. One research paper, and one presentation that ended up being an hour and 45 minutes rather than the 40 minutes it was supposed to be, but oh well, we got good marks :)

Can't really think of much more, but I've found a new game called GuildWars, it was on display at E3 and was a free trial during that time, but I will end up buying it, it's such a cool game. I think I may have found a MMORPG that I like. I've also rediscovered the fun of emulators. Now I can play all the old NES, SNES, and Gameboy games on here.

I know my ideas are sporadic, but I'm watching Yu-Gi-Oh, this show is great, so much strategy, I'd love to be able to build deck and start playing with people that know the game. Sadly, people are too hooked on magic and other such games, ah well. Video game versions will have to suffice.

Oh yeah, I think I'm finally done my final project now, baring any big troubles with the rest of my friends, we should all be finished by Monday.

Wow, I forgot that I had so much to do. The good thing is that my boss is going to give me the time off in the summer so I can come back to Saskatoon for a little while. The plan is to come back after Maggie leaves and spend time there until my brother's grad, which is the 25th, I'll be coming back to Calgary on the 26th and back to work on the 27th. First day off is the 10th by the way. I can't wait for that and finally being done school.

Speaking of school, I got my grad ring this week. It's going to cost as much as a new bed, which I need too. A single bed doesn't cut it. Anyway if I work enough I should be able to get both. It's going to be a nice ring. 10k white gold, an aquamarine stone, with a sunburst cut and facet face. On one side is going to be a dragon, on the other will have a phoenix. On in the inside will have "Sorean" engraved. It was funny, he asked if Sorean was my given name and I told him no, of course Heather had to pipe up and said I was a geek :P But those know that Sorean is my alter ego, my "better" half :P Anyway I got more shit to do, like marking, and some some relaxing time spent gaming. Everyone take care, I'll talk to you soon.

That was the funniest line out of last night's BBQ held at my friend's place. Just for the record, Shadd is from Saskatchewan so we can all understand that statement a little better. There was so much meat, chicken, smokies, pork chops, and the list goes on. So much food. Oh wait, I just remembered another line from last night:

"No, girls do play video games.......when you let us out of the kitchen." - Girl's name I can't remember.

The last couple of days have been a little rough with everything on the go, but I think things are better now.

Blah says it all. I miss my friends, I miss my Maggie, I just miss having a life. It's always school, work, sleep, school, work, sleep... All my friends back home, I really miss you guys. I just wish everything were normal again. And by normal I mean something stable, a standard job, a good social life with friends, everything. I just wish I had more time.

But the thing is, despite the fact that he said he doesn't want to die, I accept it. He says that death is a part of life and he doesn't want to die. I have just learned to accept it. Life sometimes as a whole sucks, it is simple and sometimes people see death as their only escape. I can actually openly share this will all of you now. There was a time when I was like that, nothing was going right, and I almost ended it all. It was my 17th birthday, but thanks to one person, I didn't. And somehow from that point on, I learned to live with death. It can come to take us at any point and it may not even be by our own terms. From that point on, I had learned to live without any regrets (though I developed new ones), without fear, and almost completely without regard for what people thought. The only thing that mattered at the time is/was is how do I feel and how will it affect those that I care about and the ones that care about me? To this day I still think like that. I don't need anyone to care about me, though I know you guys do, which is appreciated, but I think I tend to look out more for you guys if I can manage it. There's a poster on www.despair.com, that goes something along the lines of "Your purpose in life may just to serve as an example for others". Somehow, I think that does have a grain of truth. Anyway I'm hungry now so I'll be going to make some food.

Everyone that does check this, I'm sorry for being away and so busy with my own life. I really do miss my friends and want to rekindle the connections. I miss you all.

I found out two things last night, I can drink a bottle of Corona in 15 seconds, and a bottle of orange Vex in 10. I think I can do the Corona in a better time, but it was fun and now my stomach hurts. It's the day after..... Anyway, I know I've been falling behind, but I blame school and work. I've cut my time back now to just Thursday, Saturday, Sunday and Monday shifts. This is just enough to keep me a float with some extra saving money.

Senior Project is now in full swing and The project will almost be completely ready, it will be hard though, the main coding of the assignment of equipment page is going to be a pain in the ass. Pretty much have to open all the databases, and save something to all of them.... god that is going to suck, got 2 weeks to do it.... I think I'll be able to do it now, it's just building the links that are going to be difficulty, anyway, enough for technical mumbo jumbo as most of you don't really care.

I did my taxes yesterday too, 400 bucks I get back, hello new bed. Only problem is my room is way too small, stupid big corner desk, I think I'm going to have to rearrange my room a bit, but it is possible. Just have to find the time to do it.

Went and saw The Girl Next Door last night with Andrea before drinking, and it was a pretty good movie. Never though high school could be like that, especially with girls like that, but I won't ruin the movie for you guys, but it is a pretty good movie, not an ending that you would think. Next on the list is Walking Tall and The Whole Ten Yards. I'm finding time to be sane again :D I also realize I'm getting old, yesterday was the first time I went to Eau Claire and did not play DDR, I'm getting really old...but I will still do it, it's going to be my new workout thing I think, when I find time to work out that is....

Okay, I posted what I had written earlier in the day on the 1st, but that day ended up being the worst ever in recent history. Okay here's the prelude. Michel decided not to pay me for the weekend in the SRC that I did work. I had to find out from the SRC communication book that I was no longer working the weekend.

So later on the 1st I went and finally found Michel and was able to talk to him. Apparently we were having a "party" that weekend in the SRC and I think that is a load of crap, he says it came from a reliable resource, it's the weekend, we play some music, it's not loud, we have a couple of people in that, that are already working like me, Liz, Lindz, Sherry (The security guard) and we talk and laugh cuz funny things are said. But someone said we were partying which is just stupid. After talking to him for 1/2 an hour he pretty much told me to fuck off. I told him that the SRC should be a place where student feel comfortable and it has become a cold place, no one feels welcome in there anymore. I told him this and I also told him that morale is dropping and you know what he said? "I'll deal with that". It really bugs me that he is not even being the slightest bit reasonable about how things were running. Another thing he imposed is that no music or games on your own machines. His reasoning is that is is disruptive, now I asked him about that and he said it would be okay if it was not bothering other students. Remember the rule I mentioned earlier about the no corporate food? He said that apparently someone ordered pizza and brought it there and taking up a table, yes I can understand that, but I say if it is not busy then it should not be a problem. Then I brought up the point that I have been told that morale from both SRC staff and students are suffering from lower moral and are not understanding the logic behind the new rules. He then stopped me and told me "You are not representative of the SRC staff nor the student body. Tell these individuals to talk to me themselves. So then I said fine, I'm not coming to you as a rep, but as a student, then he got a little more pissed off :P We then had a little discussion about me as a character and I did not appreciate that, it was the matter of the SRC not of me, either way at one point I said "I have work at the school for 2 years, and I consider the SRC a second home." To which he rebutted in a very hostile tone, "It's because you use it as such." This was after he referred to the fact that I was looking for apartments while on shift. This was over a year ago... I told him students are not happy with how the SRC is being handled, morale is dropping. He said "I'll deal" I can't remember exactly how the conversation ended, but I remember making a point about how the SRC is for students, not "customers", which is how he referred to them, they are our friends, colleagues, not customers. And he just sat there. After about 10 seconds, I said "Well I guess we are finished then. He replied, "Yes we are" and stormed off. Well so much for him being professional, not once during that 30 minutes would he look me in the eye and talk to me. Either way, things are not right at the school.

As far as work goes, I'm going to cut back my hours like I said before, but I'm only going to be taking Tuesdays off, mainly cuz a 4 hours shift isn't really worth it. Everything else is okay though, can't really complain. Anyway, enough of my rambling, later all and take care.

Well it sure looks like I fell behind here, and I have a good reason for it. We had to hand in our time sheets at work yesterday and guess what? From March 16th to March 21st, I work a total of 90.5 hours..... I am slowly going crazy 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, Switch! Crazy going slowly am I 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1... But you guys know what? I'm kinda loving my busy ass life. Granted I haven't done much as far as being social is being concerned, but I was talking to Maggie last night and I'm think that I need to work less at Unnamed Company, it's not like I'm hurting for the money, but it's nice to pull in that much every cheque. I think I'm going to start only working 4 days a week, that's still about 700 a cheque, I think I'll manage, it will just mean a little less partying or something like that. Let's see, what else.... I've somehow found time for a counter-strike league and actually play maybe once every other day to keep my skills in semi-good shape. www.the-space.net go there and that's where I exist in the count-strike world.

I miss having a social life, right now it's one day off a week and that day is usually taken up by something that I have to do, catch up on homework, work on something personal, cleaning, sadly sometimes going out seems like something I have to do as if I don't, I'll lose my friends. I really need a couple more days off a week because I'm pretty damn sure I need days off. Hell, I've been trying to work on a new layout that will match my e-portfolio, but I can't do it yet. Hell, I look at my friends' sites and they all rule compared to this piece of crap. Bah, I need more time!!! Anyway, you know what the sad thing is? I'm semi-paying attention in class while I type this, it's a discussion class and I'm getting my two cents in for marks. Don'tcha love that? Getting marks for my opinion? It's great.

Anyway Sorean is starting to get misguided and unfocused so I'm going to stop here before I really start to ramble about anything that comes to mind, we're talking about Onstar and GPS right now, so let's not really start there.

Happy Birthday to me :D Well Lindz just left, we watched Romeo Must Die again and had a drink. Before that we were at the theater watching Dawn of the Dead. So technically I spent the earlier part of my b-day in the theater but that's okay, it was in the company of a great friend :)

Dawn of the Dead was okay, it wasn't as scary as I thought, I still don't like scary movies though. It was more funny than anything, but I won't spoil it here for those that have not seen it.

Well lets see what has happened in the past week..... I still have no idea about why I lost my job at the SRC and I still can't figure it out, talking to the new boss won't solve a thing, if anything I want a mediator there when I talk to him, I mean the guy absolutely hates me and I can see him turning anything I say against me. It's 3:30 in the morning right now so forgive the scatterbrained topics.

Actually that bed looks mighty comfy right now....... I think the bed wins, I'll be updating later.

Well so much has happened at the school that it has become a crappy place to work. The SRC on the weekend has been cut down to just Lindz now, we think anyway as the new person has not directly talked to me yet, but he now runs the show rather than Keith because Keith is on another sabbatical. He has gone on such a power trip that it is not even funny. Here's a brilliant new enforcement that he came up with yesterday. Any food product that has corporate branding is not allowed in the SRC... That means McDonald's, Burger King, Wendy's, etc. No one can understand this rule. Another thing the SRC is the STUDENT RESOURCE CENTER, we have a telephone, but we are not allowing students, nor other FAs to use it. Also, we are not allowed to hold group meetings in the room. If that is the case, what the fuck is the SRC for then?

Okay so it's been a little while since I got back, but I don't really feel like doing anything :P School has started back up and I'm back at work again. Nothing really new to report, just the same old stuff except I can't find my T4's :( That really, really sucks. I though I left them at home before I went to BC, but now I can't find them, oh well, I'll just have to see if I can get another copy somehow. Started playing GTA: III now so that is my next target game to finish, Joan of Arc just kinda lost my interest, rather play BloodRayne, which I have installed ;) Anyway I got a lot of stuff to do on my day off, like go get food for the next week :P Everyone take care!

Ahhhhh finally done Warcraft III : Frozen Throne, it was a great story and sadly, I can expect to see a couple more scenarios or expansions released by Blizzard as it leaves it open for a story. It only took 2 days of Maggie's classes for me to get through the rest of the campaign. I guess from my own calculations the entire undead campaign took about 7 or 8 hours. Now only 5 other games to go through.

Well the past couple of days have been pretty good, last I said I had dinner with Maggie's family, dinner was great, turkey, mashed potatoes and other fixings. At the end though I was trapped in the kitchen with the females of Maggie's family with them on one side of the dinner table, me on the other and all of a sudden it turned into an interrogation. So the following questions were asked:

Mags, her brother, Marcel, and I trekked into the city on Monday and watched The Passion of Christ and I must say that Mr. Gibson did a great job, granted I knew the storyline already it was still very well done. I tried watching it from a person with a non-Catholic background and it was still done very well, but very graphic. I mean the part where they start tearing at Jesus' skin until I could see the white of his ribs.... that was a little over the top, but still within the bounds of understanding. I could actually feel myself feeling sorry for Jesus as there were these people who wanted to put him to death, for no reason at all. I could get into a huge religious debate right now, but that won't be happening, those things are much more fun in real life besides, everyone already I know I believe that there is a higher power, but not God or Buddha or Allah or anyone like that, just a higher power, regardless of his/her name.

Man, I realize that this site seriously needs some updating, it's not very pleasing to look at, nothing more than text on a page. I think I might just take my e-portfolio style an copy that and redo this page as white on black was cool at the time, but now it's kinda "blah" need some change. I think that will be my next personal project.

Anyway I'm off to do a little more gaming now before Maggie is outta class, later all and take care.

It feels weird you know? It feels like I should be doing something, but yet I don't have to. I'm spending time with Maggie which is great and in the two days that I have been here, I've had dinner with both her parents and their significant others. I think I made a good impression with her dad when I told him I would be graduating this summer with a Bachelors of Science. It's just sounds good :D And come on, who would not like someone who is 21, going to have a BsC, has a good paying job, and an all around great guy? No, I'm not trying to sound arrogant, but isn't that what a parent wants to hear about their child's significant other?

After being in BC for about 3 days now I think I've spent a total of about 200 bucks. On what you ask? Dinner for Maggie, myself, her dad and her step-mom. After that I bought two bunnyhugs from the Gap, they were 20 bucks, regular 70, who could pass up that deal? Plus they are super comfy too. And I also have 4 more movies to add to my collection: Cradle 2 the Grave, Underworld, Chicago, and the Italian Job. All very good movies in my opinion.

Tonight is going to be a "family" dinner thing at Maggie's grandma's house as it is for her grandma's birthday. This should be fun... I get to meet the whole family now. I'm not too scared, but then again, I've never really been afraid of anything at all.

Well time to get ready. To all fellow classmates, enjoy your break, to the guys at work, I'll see you next Wednesday, and to all my other friends, take care.

Okay, so another week seems to have lapsed by without my knowing. *yawn* I'm so tired now I mean I try to sleep, but it never happens. I'm in the SRC typing this right now, been working here since 8AM, but "working" is a term I use loosely, I've spent the time playing games :P I love my job here, especially the weekends. So now I have more games to play through, this brings the list to:

Now where am I going to find the time to play/finish all these games? I've been working on Warcraft III : FT and the original Warcraft III for a couple months now. I found Joan of Arc and started playing it, it is a really good game and really hard. I think I'll be finishing Joan of Arc first as it is very fun. Also, I found a Yu-Gi-Oh game for the computer too. Such a great game. So much time is taken up, but such good entertainment. That's one thing I find about games now, I play them for the story. I don't even have time to read books anymore and it saddens me. Hopefully once I am done school, I'll have some more time to myself.

Well on Friday I'll be headed back out to BC to see my girl, the first day out there her parents want to go for dinner, that should be fun. Then I have no idea what else is planned for us. I know that I'm sleeping on the couch :( McKenna who is going out with Heather is going to get to sleep with her in her bed, all I want to do is cuddle :(

Last night, McKenna, Lindz and I went to The Keg and had an amazing meal, 125 bucks later we were so full we didn't want to move. I had a rib eye with lobster tail. It was so good, tack on two rye and Pepsis and I was good for the night. We have grown so much and things have changed so much, but things are great. This semester has been pretty brutal, all this work, all the drama of my life which most of you have seen, it's been horrible. I'm hoping that next semester will better because it is our last and all that is left is going to be work. Still contemplating getting a Masters degree in something. But meh, whatever.

Now I'm at work, Unnamed Company that is, and it is kinda dead here so I figure I'll update this some more. There have been some pretty funny things that have been happening as of late, well two things worth mentioning.

1. This is more of something for gamers, but anyone who understands L33t 5p34k will understand. I was at work the other day and I had to generate a passcode for a guest. These codes are 4 characters long and are alphanumeric. It was pretty amusing when I saw the auto generate passcode read: W33D.

2. I was waiting for the bus the other night when coming home from work and there was a cement bench tipped over, and a drunk guy working on tipping the other bench over. So I'm just standing there, about 10 feet waiting for the bus and the guy finally tips over the other bench with a resounding thud. He then proceeded to stagger around to the front of the bench and started to try to pick it up. After much grunting and struggling, the man, in his inebriated state was able to get the bench upright. He headed over to the other bench and tried to pick that one up. As he was working on that one an old lady walked up to him and asked,

Well it's 1:30 in the afternoon and I'm at home, with my new headset for my laptop relaxing. 170 bucks later I have a new headset, 50 blank CDs, a new backpack for my laptop which is absolutely amazing, I love it, it's got all the things I need, like lots of pockets :P, GTA3, and Vice City, just not sure when I'm going to find time to play it.

Remember how I told you guys to make sure you kept sane by not working too much? Listen to me, 3 days ago I crashed, and I crashed hard, for the first time in my life, I called in sick, I've never called in sick before ever in my life. But I went home, slept for a good couple of hours and then woke up when my roommate's alarm went off for him to get up for his night shift. Then I went back to bed at 12, couldn't really sleep before then, anyway woke up completely invigorated. The day before I was functioning at like 30% mental capacity and felt maybe 40% physically healthy. But after resting I felt a lot better.

It feels good to pull in a grand a pay check, too bad most of it is already gone to pay bills :P But it's not so bad, can't wait until this coming week is over then all that is left is one final and I'll be good to go :)

What else..... Oh yeah, I'll be graduating with a Bachelor's of Science now too :D That makes me happy, no Bachelor's of Technology for me. It's the same thing, but a BsC sounds cooler.

Well I'm done this for now, going to work on my ASP project a little more. Take care everyone.

Lunch break now at work and I decided to pull out my laptop to update this. I haven't had much time to myself at all. I mean I go home and I sleep, that's it. My roommate and I live together, but when I leave Monday morning I don't see the guy again until Thursday. And we live together... Imagine how my friends feel. I really do apologize all you guys. I don't have much time at all, and this weekend is booked up too. There's a tour from Saskatchewan coming to DeVry on Saturday and I volunteered to lead us through the school, tell them about the experience, etc. On the upspin, hmmm that word came up as an error, what's the opposite of downspin then? Anyway, back to the point, there is one class that I mark for, it's an upper term business class, but I'm teaching them networking, whoops I said teaching. Well technically I am, I am supposed to be the FA for the instructor and I'm supposed to be marking for them, but lo and behold I do more than that. I teach the labs, the teacher has no real world practice with the stuff, she teaches out of a text book.

This feels nice, to sit back and relax, munching on a ham and cheese sandwich while sipping on a coffee, so relaxing for some reason, probably because I haven't had much time to me. And we have another project due soon, an ASP project with a Oracle back end, should be fun, and that's due in 12 days from now. *sigh* where did all the time go?

I'm leaving for BC on the 27th again, all you guys back home I'm really sorry, but I miss my Maggie a lot :( If things work out well, I'll be back over the summer for a couple of days. Gotta be there for my bro's grad, which incidentally is on the 25th and my grad is the 19th. Well break is almost over, so I'm going to wrap this up and going to upload it when I get home. Take care all.

I can tell you all right now that that is not the real equation. Everyone that can, do not overload yourself. I tell you this in the most earnest way possible. I realize I am being a hypocrite, but I don't really care. Just 5 more months to go until a relatively regular schedule. That is my graduation as well. Which brings the question to my mind, "Who is coming?" Maggie said she is going to be there, and it seems like both my parents will be as well. Should be interesting.........

In gaming news, I finished Warcraft III and the ending cut scenes were funny. I know I'm behind in the gaming world, but I don't really care, I'm still trying. Time to start Frozen Throne now. By the way, World of Warcraft beta signups are now occurring. You can only sign up until the 4th of February. Anyway enough gaming talking.

School working is starting to be fun, I got a shitload more marking today, it was kind of fun, had a lot of faculty stop me to talk today. Maybe because I haven't been around, but it was interesting. Okay, I'm about to cough up a lung. I'm outta here.

Alright, 10 days have elapsed since my last update. Well today I spent 14 bucks doing laundry, that's sad. But then again I washed all my clothes, plus my bed stuff as well. Then I went out with my roommate to Wal-Mart. 130 bucks can get you a lot of stuff I got a new jacket/vest, 2 new long sleeved sweats, shampoo, conditioner, some small containers for shampoo, conditioner, and gel for when I have to crash at friends place, 4 movies: Black Mask, Monkey Bone (Brendan Fraser movie), Johnny Mnemonic, and a DVD for my friend. 2 new pillows, 2 things for the bathroom.

Watching Black Mask as I write this and I forgot how good of a movie this is. Too bad it's not in Cantonese, I would have much rather the movie been in the native tongue, it's just bad dubbed, well it's okay, but damn there is some good action in it. Anyway I've been working a lot, don't even have time to game anymore. I'm up to the Night Elf missions in Warcraft III so I'm in a bit of a bind. I occasionally find time to play some CS and Diablo II LoD but that's it. I still have my utopia, but I that's a different type of gaming. At least I can still do that at work, even at work a lot of shit has hit the fan. They won't let me use my laptop at work because of some issues we've been having. It's sad because my comp is better than theirs and I'm trying to be productive. Ah well, it's good pay. Oh by the way guys I've gotten some contact that will work out well for me back home should I decide that's what I want to do. But even then it's not a bad thing, I might be able to hook some of you guys up back home with a contact or two. After all, it's what I've always done, I've always helped out.

I have so much homework, 1 psychology project, 1 term programming project, 1 senior project, I have to finish part of my e-portfolio which is located here, but it still leaves a lot to be desired. I really need Photoshop on here and learn how to use it too. *sigh* so much to do little time. Oh I forgot a COBOL lab that the teacher said that past students have said is a "bitch" to do... Well hopefully I'll figure something out this weekend, it is my only day off today, and it is not 4 in the afternoon and I haven't really done anything, but it's been nice to not do anything.

Andrea and I are going to work on one project tonight and maybe play some gamecube, working on the missions for Super Smash Brother's Melee. I've forgot how much I enjoyed not doing anything. The bad guy in this movie reminds me a lot of Ozzy Osbourne. actually he looks like like an Asian version of Ozzy. Just realized that you guys are going to have to bear with me cuz I'm still watching this movie. "The quiet ones get the most done, they don't waste their time talking" That's a pretty good line, Jet Li.

Man these dubs are so bad, but it's still a good flick. And I still have more movies to go through. Alright, I'm just rambling now so I'll just stop. Wow, the guy in this movie has a styer Aug with a grenade launcher attached. I just thought those guns looked cool when I was a kid, but now I know those guns do really exist.

I really miss my friends back home, Jason, if you read this, the DVD is for you and I know you'll like it. I just hope you don't already have it. Ed, I miss hanging out with you man, and all the other people back home. FeXd, why haven't you answered my e-mail yet? I would like a reply if that is possible. If you haven't gotten the e-mail send me one and I'll ask you for some information again.

Wow, this Tracy chick in the movie goes from a prissy librarian, to a Trinity like girl. I also just realized that in Asian movies it's a lot different than Western movies. Hugs are almost as powerful as a kiss in those movies. Maybe that's where all my old fashioned mentality comes from when it comes to relationships. Hell I don't really understand why things work the way they do. Relationships will be something that people will never understand.

To steal a line from a friend, I've become update lazy. Well not really lazy, just really at a lack of time. Much like Ed, I don't really have the time to update any more. I'm having problems keeping track of my time and projects, it's kind of fun, but also semi-hard. Everyone says I'm going to crash eventually, but those that know me know I'm the type of person that goes, if you tell me I can't, I will. I have about 6 months to tough out until I grad and then all I have is this job. Sadly, at work they have started to crack down, we can still surf and stuff, but they are starting to put rules in place. Oh well, it's not going too bad, but we will see how it goes. Okay, John is getting tired now, it's mid-night and I have to be up in 6 hours.... just like last night....

Okay, so it's been a long time since I last updated. Sure it's the holidays, but I have good reason. Since the 20th I've had to work every day until the 24th and then had Christmas day off and went to see LOTR: Return of the King at night. It was a much needed break. Worked on the 26th and then Maggie was here the next day, spent every living moment with her until her and Bree needed a girl's night. Maggie brought food home for me :D Yay for popcorn shrimp and chicken fingers with fries from Moxie's! Anyway I had to send her off on Monday night, *sniff, sniff* But we had so much fun while she was out here.

She gave me a bracelet that says "John K. Mach" on one side and on the reverse it says "Love always, Mags" It's an awesome new accessory. Hehehe, ankle bracelet. Anyway there was that and a house coat, which I knew she was getting me, but love it none the less, allows me to walk around in just my shorts like I like to do. Now that Christmas is over I can actually post here what I gave her as I know she would have found out a head of time if I posted it here. I got her an alien stitch doll, an ornament stitch that says "Naughty" on his Christmas sweater and he's holding a snowball, a momma and baby panda, a white baby seal, and a silver picture frame that says "Me & My Babie" engraved on it and it has her favorite picture in it. Andrea gave us a collective gift too, a huge ass candle that burns and smells like cookies, I'm not talking about normal cookies, but super strong, sweet cookies. Michelle, Maggie's best friend back in Squamish, gave us a collective gift too, she wanted us to open it together away from anyone else, but I'm sure Mags won't mind me telling people, it was a for lovers thing that had chocolate body paint, edible cinnamon massage oil, some body power stuff, and a lot of candles, the candles are almost all gone, the massage oil made my and Maggie's tummy hurt, and Maggie wouldn't let me have any body chocolate :(

Anyway we went out a lot, mostly to places to eat so Mags can get taste of Calgary restaurants, it was fun :) I wanted to take her skating, but we didn't have the time, her whole visit seems like a blur, we went shopping her second day here, can't remember what we did on the third day, new years eve was fun, got drunk on banana liqueur and milk after dinner at the restaurant where I took Mags on our first date. Went to the Keg for our 6 month...wow it's been six months, longest relationship ever. Spending time with her made me realize how much I really loved the girl.

School is back to normal now, I'm on my second night of 3-11 right now, actually I'm on my break as I update this. I've also been scheduled for 3-11 for next week too. Gonna be fun seeing how I make it here on Sunday as I usually get a ride from my roommate to school or work, seeing as how I have both, it's going to be fun :P

Also, I'm happy with my new laptop, getting my groove back with counter-strike, so for those of you with Steam, add Sorean to your friends list and we'll go play sometime. Sadly, my skills are no where near where they used to be. Oh well, I got so many games to catch up with now. I finally installed Warcraft III and Frozen Throne. Slowly working my way through the story, and I still have to get GTA III and Vice City along with BloodRayne.... *sigh* so much time is needed... ah well, school and work first, then games....

Utopia.... *sigh* I want to do well for these guys, but I was gone for about 10 days, and they got frustrated with me. Some of them understand, but it honestly seems like some of them don't like me. The one guy, Marcus, he's been around for a while and he chose to leave a while ago because he didn't find the kingdom fun anymore. Now he is back and decides to try to tell me what to do, he has always had a power struggle with Elurin when Elurin was king, now he seems to want to do the same with me, he is quickly running my patience thin when it comes to him. Other than that our kingdom is doing okay, but not to the standards that I expect of us. Granted my week off set us back a bit we should still be good enough to get better.

Hmmmm running out of things to ramble about. Oh yeah, I'm staying at my friend's place for the next couple of days, I have been since Tuesday to take care of his cat while he is in Australia, lucky bastard. But I pretty much just sleep on the couch there. My schedule is going to be fun :) This is what it now looks like:

I'm going to try to get that 1 hour between 1PM and 2PM to be in the SRC now, mainly because for that hour I am not doing anything, it takes only about 20 minutes to get to work if the bus runs right so I'm going to try. After all, I'm already at the school.

I just realize I don't really update as often as the rest of my friends, but when I do, boy do I ever put a lot here. Anyway, I'm tired now, 1 more hour of work and I can go home and going to bed relatively early. At least I kinda get to sleep in tomorrow. Well I'm out everyone, take care and drop me and e-mail sometime if you feel like letting me know what is going on in your lives.

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Class 9-11 SRC 12-2 Unnamed Company 3-11	Class 10-12 Unnamed Company 3-11	Class 8-1 Unnamed Company 3-11	Class 8-1 Unnamed Company 3-11	Class 10-12 LAB FA 1-2 Unnamed Company 3-11	Yay! No work!!	SRC 12-6